Yeah..
Why is it so hard for me to make ongoing conversations with people I want to talk to? Are they just desperate to get it over with already? Lookin' for an easy shot at an escape as soon as possible? Why do I spend most of my time talkin', just to get a few scattered one or two-worded responses?
Why is it just a quick hug, a "Hey, how are you doin'?" and "What have you been up to?" and then we're on our merry way, whereas I slumber into a chair, sittin' there, lookin' around, yet they find someone else and talk on-and-on with the next person?
I can't exactly have a good time like this. Just hangin' out, a few thrown words across the room, nothin' else? I mean, what good is that, really?
Is it because I never really have anything interestin' to say? Maybe you never gave me a chance?
I may be hard of hearin', but dammit, I wanna be a normal socialite, a normal conversationalist, someone who others will actually spend plenty of time with, and try to make conversation?
I may have been most popular in high school, but surely, I felt the same way above as I still do now. Most people just know me as the "Christmas Rap" guy and ask me to do it every now and then, and that was mostly the reason why I was voted most popular.
And why is it practically the same thing with others I talk to online, besides a very few select people who actually give me some of their time on here? I'd see someone new that I wouldn't mind talkin' to, but in most cases, it's like repeatin' my real life again.
I don't want that. I want more. Is that too fuckin' much to ask? I.. don't.. know.. why.. I.. bother..
Why is it just a quick hug, a "Hey, how are you doin'?" and "What have you been up to?" and then we're on our merry way, whereas I slumber into a chair, sittin' there, lookin' around, yet they find someone else and talk on-and-on with the next person?
I can't exactly have a good time like this. Just hangin' out, a few thrown words across the room, nothin' else? I mean, what good is that, really?
Is it because I never really have anything interestin' to say? Maybe you never gave me a chance?
I may be hard of hearin', but dammit, I wanna be a normal socialite, a normal conversationalist, someone who others will actually spend plenty of time with, and try to make conversation?
I may have been most popular in high school, but surely, I felt the same way above as I still do now. Most people just know me as the "Christmas Rap" guy and ask me to do it every now and then, and that was mostly the reason why I was voted most popular.
And why is it practically the same thing with others I talk to online, besides a very few select people who actually give me some of their time on here? I'd see someone new that I wouldn't mind talkin' to, but in most cases, it's like repeatin' my real life again.
I don't want that. I want more. Is that too fuckin' much to ask? I.. don't.. know.. why.. I.. bother..