Outta control...
I feel like when it comes to my eating habits, my weight, exercising and etc I just have no control over myself, I feel like sometimes I am so compulsive it is bizarre. Like I don't really want to eat that cookie but I have to because it is there, and I can't stop myself until it is no longer sitting there. Even when I feel full and really don't want anything else. I'm sure this is probably some sort of disorder. I definetly think about my weight more than I should, I am very aware of where every little bit of me is sticking out too much in one spot. But then when it comes to exersing some days I am fanatic about it, but others I can't even be motivated to move from my bed (Like today).
The good part to this rant... is that I am determined to one day have control of this. To not let this disease/disorder whatever it is get the best of me...I think if I can stop myself from purging I can probably do anything, and I haven't done that in probably a year in a half to two years. Yay me!
I think I need to go to crazy girl boot camp or something. Anyone want to come??? ha.
The good part to this rant... is that I am determined to one day have control of this. To not let this disease/disorder whatever it is get the best of me...I think if I can stop myself from purging I can probably do anything, and I haven't done that in probably a year in a half to two years. Yay me!
I think I need to go to crazy girl boot camp or something. Anyone want to come??? ha.