Faux Sincerity from a Friendship
I haven't had the inkling to write anything in here for quite a while. In fact I can't even believe that this thing still exists. So anyway.
Last night I went to a trivia night at a bar called the 331 club in Northeast Minneapolis. In general it is a nice thing to do on a Sunday evening and is pretty laid back. Some nights though with the group I go with things can get a little tension filled. Last night was one of those nights.
For a while now some of the people I hang out with have really been getting on my nerves. It has gotten to the point where I have kind of taken a step back from them in order to relieve some tension and start fresh.
So it came to a question that there was a little debate about a question. Now I don't mind being wrong. What i mind is someone pointing out loudly that I am wrong with the purpose to embarass. A friend of mine has been doing that to me over the past few months. It is like she is deliberately trying to show me. Now this part will make me sound like conceded-I am good at trivia. I get a lot of answers right, usually the most on our team by far. So when I don't know something and she does she will point it out. It makes me feel like shit. There is nothing I hate more than to be made to seem stupid. If I do something on my accord or say something stupid, that is my problem but don't fault me for not knowing something. My point is that I get a lot of answers right for our team. We have won many times and won money, bar tabs, t-shirts etc. I have never once pointed out that someone didn't know something. I would never do that.
It really hurts my feelings when someone does that to me. So when I am made to feel like that I just sort of shut down. I don't talk as much and sit quietly. It appears I am sulking but I am really not. What am I doing is more avoiding the sitauation. If I don't know something if I keep quiet then I won't get made fun of. Now it appears that I am being too sensitive. Maybe that is true. But when it happens on a consistent basis it tends to wear on me. This is what is happening. So I explained to her what was wrong and why it bothered me. She got very defensive and started accusing me of doing things and being overly sensitive. It became a no-win situation. Then as I tried to calm the situation down, she simply stood up and left, pouting like a 4 year old. It shocked me. I was dumbfounded and sort of had to laugh.
The whole point of me writing is to say that I have to do something that I haven't done in a long time. I need to purge myself of certain people in my life. I am through with having roller coaster reltationships with people. I am sick of the up and down. It is draining to have to constantly worry about what I say. I am done with it.
Last night I went to a trivia night at a bar called the 331 club in Northeast Minneapolis. In general it is a nice thing to do on a Sunday evening and is pretty laid back. Some nights though with the group I go with things can get a little tension filled. Last night was one of those nights.
For a while now some of the people I hang out with have really been getting on my nerves. It has gotten to the point where I have kind of taken a step back from them in order to relieve some tension and start fresh.
So it came to a question that there was a little debate about a question. Now I don't mind being wrong. What i mind is someone pointing out loudly that I am wrong with the purpose to embarass. A friend of mine has been doing that to me over the past few months. It is like she is deliberately trying to show me. Now this part will make me sound like conceded-I am good at trivia. I get a lot of answers right, usually the most on our team by far. So when I don't know something and she does she will point it out. It makes me feel like shit. There is nothing I hate more than to be made to seem stupid. If I do something on my accord or say something stupid, that is my problem but don't fault me for not knowing something. My point is that I get a lot of answers right for our team. We have won many times and won money, bar tabs, t-shirts etc. I have never once pointed out that someone didn't know something. I would never do that.
It really hurts my feelings when someone does that to me. So when I am made to feel like that I just sort of shut down. I don't talk as much and sit quietly. It appears I am sulking but I am really not. What am I doing is more avoiding the sitauation. If I don't know something if I keep quiet then I won't get made fun of. Now it appears that I am being too sensitive. Maybe that is true. But when it happens on a consistent basis it tends to wear on me. This is what is happening. So I explained to her what was wrong and why it bothered me. She got very defensive and started accusing me of doing things and being overly sensitive. It became a no-win situation. Then as I tried to calm the situation down, she simply stood up and left, pouting like a 4 year old. It shocked me. I was dumbfounded and sort of had to laugh.
The whole point of me writing is to say that I have to do something that I haven't done in a long time. I need to purge myself of certain people in my life. I am through with having roller coaster reltationships with people. I am sick of the up and down. It is draining to have to constantly worry about what I say. I am done with it.