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I am such a hypocrite. My last post I said I wasn't going to think about girls at all. I mean I know that isn't possible, but I was hoping to just move on from something. I thought I would need the summer to move on, but I think I over it. I really like this girl, but she doesn't like me. That sucks and I really wanted it to work out. But everytime I tell her how I feel, she says I don't feel that way. So I mean she doubts me, and that sucked because I don't just say i feel that way to anyone. So I have had a hard time getting over that. After I broke up with Stephanie, I wanted to just not think about girls for a long time. But when this girl was there for me, I really wanted to be with her. And she really brought a lot of changes in me. I am learning how to be easier and I am starting to try. But just because I was nice to her and tried to treat her like a lady, doesn't just make people start to like, plus she is going through a rough time too. But I really wanted to date her, not seriously, but something more than it was. And I started to think abou that tooo much. I mean I would still date her in a heart beat if she felt that way. But she won't ever, she just sees me as a friend.
So my heart was hurting a little bit, and I thought it would be hard to get over. None of this her fault by the way. So I thought I would just give up all hoping for any girls. But christine screwed that plan for me. She told me to talk to this girl, and holy crap. She is beautiful, as I can tell we have a lot in common. She doesn't live here, but have talked for the past couple of days, and I really look forward to talking to her. So I pretty have something I going to think about all summer. I might get to her, but who knows. I am not in love or anything like that, but its really nice distraction from the other girl. And I have a lot of hope.
So my heart was hurting a little bit, and I thought it would be hard to get over. None of this her fault by the way. So I thought I would just give up all hoping for any girls. But christine screwed that plan for me. She told me to talk to this girl, and holy crap. She is beautiful, as I can tell we have a lot in common. She doesn't live here, but have talked for the past couple of days, and I really look forward to talking to her. So I pretty have something I going to think about all summer. I might get to her, but who knows. I am not in love or anything like that, but its really nice distraction from the other girl. And I have a lot of hope.