Writer's Block: Time Travel
If you could travel back in time to spend a day with someone, who would it be and why?
i would go back to the day ben left. id take of off work. try to pursuade him not to go. and if that didn't work, i'd drive him to the train station and just let him know that i love him. i love him now. i love him always, and im sorry for all the hurt i put him though.
i know i must let go. i guess its better. well better for him. hes moved on, probably found love again. and i should him go and let him love her. because shes good for him, she doesn't make him upset, doesn't give him high blood pressure, and is probably a better girl friend then i was. but things changed, and i am now where he wanted me to be. but thats it. he just doesn't want me anymore. and ive got to face that. let him live his life happily. and i'll be singing the shoulda' coulda' woulda's for the rest of my life. it happens i guess. its just this is the hardest thing ive ever gone though. this pain surpasses the passing of my grandmother, all the shit i went though frosh yr, with mono and the court case. the pain of losing all my friends sr year. so its just ahrd, b/c i do love him, and i once made him happy. but thats not the case anymore. in order for him to be happy, i need to not be in his life. and i dunno if i'll ever get used to this, but i'll try. i'll try b/c i do love him.
ben i hope u didn't read this, b/c i don't want u to be thinking of me, and getting upset, i want u to be happy.
i would go back to the day ben left. id take of off work. try to pursuade him not to go. and if that didn't work, i'd drive him to the train station and just let him know that i love him. i love him now. i love him always, and im sorry for all the hurt i put him though.
i know i must let go. i guess its better. well better for him. hes moved on, probably found love again. and i should him go and let him love her. because shes good for him, she doesn't make him upset, doesn't give him high blood pressure, and is probably a better girl friend then i was. but things changed, and i am now where he wanted me to be. but thats it. he just doesn't want me anymore. and ive got to face that. let him live his life happily. and i'll be singing the shoulda' coulda' woulda's for the rest of my life. it happens i guess. its just this is the hardest thing ive ever gone though. this pain surpasses the passing of my grandmother, all the shit i went though frosh yr, with mono and the court case. the pain of losing all my friends sr year. so its just ahrd, b/c i do love him, and i once made him happy. but thats not the case anymore. in order for him to be happy, i need to not be in his life. and i dunno if i'll ever get used to this, but i'll try. i'll try b/c i do love him.
ben i hope u didn't read this, b/c i don't want u to be thinking of me, and getting upset, i want u to be happy.