ain't life grand?
ive decided that i like my pale ass, or as some people say, my peaches and cream complexion. so therefore i really won't be working on a tan for the first time since ive had control over how dark my skin got. especailly since no matter how hard i work on a tan it WILL be gone about two weeks after summer. PLUS i know im probably going to get a form of cancer at one point in my life, since it runs rapid on both sides of my family, so i figured i can try and take control over one kind, and do everything in my power to stop it from happening.
anyway today was rather boring. work was meh alright. after work i went food shopping with the fam, and i just got finished watch JONAH the veggie tale movie, with my nephew. oh and i stuffed my face with chinese leftovers. yum! other then that it was just ur run of the mill average day at ibsp. summer really hasn't kicked in, and im jsut about done with my first summer novel. This Much I Know Is True by Wally Lamb. A MUST READ, severly depressing, but kinda brought some insight into my own. BUT its such a good read. possibly even better then She;s Come Undone. so DEF pick it up.
ben comes in a few days, well 20 to be exact, and im really kinda pumped about it. i know its hard to tell anymore if we're together or if we aren't anymore, but a big part of that is my indecisiveness. and not just with him, but with everything anymore. im just really unsure of my self, and what im capable of doing. and its torturous! its like im in middle school all over agian, having being let go from my safe zone (high school) and having to figure out what to do, all on my own. again. and its awkward as hell, and im being a baby about it too, like im having an emotional temper tantrum about it. b/c i was happy with what i had, and i didn't ask for change. i was happy there, and now all i wanna do is kick and scream, and stomp my feet till i go back. but i know that i can do that till im blue in the face but its never gonna happen. so im kinda scared too. weird. all of it is just weird. i think i might have found a path. but im not sure yet. but i'll keep turning it over in my head to see if its the right path for me.
sometimes i wish i could just be that guy in my icon. :)
anyway today was rather boring. work was meh alright. after work i went food shopping with the fam, and i just got finished watch JONAH the veggie tale movie, with my nephew. oh and i stuffed my face with chinese leftovers. yum! other then that it was just ur run of the mill average day at ibsp. summer really hasn't kicked in, and im jsut about done with my first summer novel. This Much I Know Is True by Wally Lamb. A MUST READ, severly depressing, but kinda brought some insight into my own. BUT its such a good read. possibly even better then She;s Come Undone. so DEF pick it up.
ben comes in a few days, well 20 to be exact, and im really kinda pumped about it. i know its hard to tell anymore if we're together or if we aren't anymore, but a big part of that is my indecisiveness. and not just with him, but with everything anymore. im just really unsure of my self, and what im capable of doing. and its torturous! its like im in middle school all over agian, having being let go from my safe zone (high school) and having to figure out what to do, all on my own. again. and its awkward as hell, and im being a baby about it too, like im having an emotional temper tantrum about it. b/c i was happy with what i had, and i didn't ask for change. i was happy there, and now all i wanna do is kick and scream, and stomp my feet till i go back. but i know that i can do that till im blue in the face but its never gonna happen. so im kinda scared too. weird. all of it is just weird. i think i might have found a path. but im not sure yet. but i'll keep turning it over in my head to see if its the right path for me.
sometimes i wish i could just be that guy in my icon. :)