NODOZE- awesome pills
at practice on friday i think people really began to see my "skills" im always hyped up as being such a good player a real asset(abc) to the team. i kept messing up i couldnt do anything right till the last 45 mins of practice. at that point i had a killer headache that tried to bring tears to my eyes. i kept going trying to be strong and fight through the pain. nobody would of noticed i was in such pain if i hadnt grabbed my head. >:O WHY DID I HAVE TO SHOW MY WEAKNESS!!!. i got benched during practice because of my headache im still pissed about that. i have 2 games tomorrow and im really nervous to see how they will go. i bought some energy pills the other day. one pill is like drinking 3 cups of coffee. i took two on thursday even thought ur not really suppost to. i think i might start to take them more but im not really sure. ANGELOS got pissed when he found them in my purse. he says im an awesome person and friend which is tight to hear. he worries about me a lot in a big brother kind of way which is good. him and AHMAD are gonna really get along if they ever meet. oh AHMAD... ill talk about that in a bit. i think im in love with the energy pills the way it makes me feel is sorta scary... but i like all the work i get done. ok well im gonna take some tomorrow for my games and for work and ill just see how it turns out.
AHMAD is freakin breaking my heart... i hate to see him upset it just hurts so bad. this chick hes "in love" with is NOT good for him. i want to tell him all the things shes says but i cant bring myself to it. ive tried to tell him that i dont approve and he can do better. i told him a few things she said to me and she said that they were lies and that the person who said it was lying. so she lied to me then she went and called me a liar. I HATE TO BE CALLED A LIAR! thats so gay i DONT lie! i just want him to be happy...
then theres COOKIEMONSTER that guys so awesome... we've been talking more at school this past week which is really kewl. i really enjoy spending time with him :-d hes a whole lot of time to talk to and just be around. also HES SO ADORIABLE... hehe i want him to get a good chick. haha his booty lol everybody knows him by it which sorta sux to be him. hes been a real good friend to me and has helped me a lot with everything that has happened to me since we met. i trust him with everything i do and i know he wont tell a soul. i dont know why ive neen so blessed to have some really good friends in my life. i just hope that i dont mess up and ruin all my friendships. sacrafices(ABC) arent that hard to make when it comes to my friends. I LOVE COOKIEMONSTER so much hes so tight!
ANGELOS has been a very much needed escape for me. he came into my life right when i needed an escape. we hung out last sunday and it was so0o0o0o0o much fun :-*. we went to the beach and just talked it was really good to help someone else in a time of need. he helped me realise that the decision i made with me and LUKE is the best for both of us. i explained how everything started what all had happened and the feeling that were involved. then i explained about everything i had going on and how im just a high schooler to LUKE. idk if he ment to offend me with that but he did. he might be in college but i know so much more then he does. i hate it when people try to explain things to me when they dont have a clue what their talking about. ok ok thats a different topic which is pointless to talk about so ANYWAYS!
im gonna go im tired and i need to get some sleep for tomorrow.
dont cry because its over... be happy that it happened. -ah what a beautiful quote.
o haha my bottom lips bruised i guess i sucked on it too hard when i was talking to ANGELOS haha im a fag!
-ErYhN-
AHMAD is freakin breaking my heart... i hate to see him upset it just hurts so bad. this chick hes "in love" with is NOT good for him. i want to tell him all the things shes says but i cant bring myself to it. ive tried to tell him that i dont approve and he can do better. i told him a few things she said to me and she said that they were lies and that the person who said it was lying. so she lied to me then she went and called me a liar. I HATE TO BE CALLED A LIAR! thats so gay i DONT lie! i just want him to be happy...
then theres COOKIEMONSTER that guys so awesome... we've been talking more at school this past week which is really kewl. i really enjoy spending time with him :-d hes a whole lot of time to talk to and just be around. also HES SO ADORIABLE... hehe i want him to get a good chick. haha his booty lol everybody knows him by it which sorta sux to be him. hes been a real good friend to me and has helped me a lot with everything that has happened to me since we met. i trust him with everything i do and i know he wont tell a soul. i dont know why ive neen so blessed to have some really good friends in my life. i just hope that i dont mess up and ruin all my friendships. sacrafices(ABC) arent that hard to make when it comes to my friends. I LOVE COOKIEMONSTER so much hes so tight!
ANGELOS has been a very much needed escape for me. he came into my life right when i needed an escape. we hung out last sunday and it was so0o0o0o0o much fun :-*. we went to the beach and just talked it was really good to help someone else in a time of need. he helped me realise that the decision i made with me and LUKE is the best for both of us. i explained how everything started what all had happened and the feeling that were involved. then i explained about everything i had going on and how im just a high schooler to LUKE. idk if he ment to offend me with that but he did. he might be in college but i know so much more then he does. i hate it when people try to explain things to me when they dont have a clue what their talking about. ok ok thats a different topic which is pointless to talk about so ANYWAYS!
im gonna go im tired and i need to get some sleep for tomorrow.
dont cry because its over... be happy that it happened. -ah what a beautiful quote.
o haha my bottom lips bruised i guess i sucked on it too hard when i was talking to ANGELOS haha im a fag!
-ErYhN-