Some travel pondering
I have been doing some soul searching. And i have figured out some of my flaws...
I am not a good person. I can be a wonderful loving guy and I think that I am a lot of the time. BUT... When people tell me something I don't like or something mean about me, I go over the top to piss them off. I can say some of the meanest things possible for me to think of. When I put someone down I do it as hard as I can and I don't expect them to say anything back. I don't want to be like that. Tonight I said a really mean thing to my father and I regret it now, but i do that with everybody. I don't want to do that anymore...
I have some offers to play football up here in New York and Massachusetts but I don't know if I should go. I kind of want to restart my life but I just care for so many people down there in georgia. I know I hurt them but I want them in my life forever. No girls give me a chance a down there. I can see why but i wish they would at least give me one chance.
I don't think I am as shallow as all you guys think. Let me explain. If I get to know someone and I see all the goodness they have then they miraculously become the most beautiful girl on earth. I can't help it after that. That is how it is for me. I don't know why and I can't help it. Please forgive me for caring for someone so much and being upset for nothing in return.
I just wanted to say all that so I can show how I am because few people really know me. I wish I could know all of you though.
I am not a good person. I can be a wonderful loving guy and I think that I am a lot of the time. BUT... When people tell me something I don't like or something mean about me, I go over the top to piss them off. I can say some of the meanest things possible for me to think of. When I put someone down I do it as hard as I can and I don't expect them to say anything back. I don't want to be like that. Tonight I said a really mean thing to my father and I regret it now, but i do that with everybody. I don't want to do that anymore...
I have some offers to play football up here in New York and Massachusetts but I don't know if I should go. I kind of want to restart my life but I just care for so many people down there in georgia. I know I hurt them but I want them in my life forever. No girls give me a chance a down there. I can see why but i wish they would at least give me one chance.
I don't think I am as shallow as all you guys think. Let me explain. If I get to know someone and I see all the goodness they have then they miraculously become the most beautiful girl on earth. I can't help it after that. That is how it is for me. I don't know why and I can't help it. Please forgive me for caring for someone so much and being upset for nothing in return.
I just wanted to say all that so I can show how I am because few people really know me. I wish I could know all of you though.