No need to hide this
I must apologize... I am a lying sack of shit. Whenever I say, "I don't want replies," what I really mean is, "I desperately want the validation of knowing that somebody bothered to read this, but I don't want replies that just say 'Yeah, you've got everything right,' because if I thought I had everything figured out I wouldn't be so plagued with doubt, but I'm also afraid that you're going to point out exactly what I'm doing wrong and I'm going to feel stupid as a result."
It's passive-aggressive. I don't know why I just now connected that, but that's what it is, and since I'm done with passive-aggressiveness in my life, it stops now.
So... fuck it. Do whatever you want. Reply, don't reply. Cheer me up, put me down. If you think I'm being a whiny little bitch, call me on it. Just ignore whatever I say about what I want you to say.
What is with this weird bout of honesty and forthrightness? I haven't been on any cough syrup for 12 hours.
It's passive-aggressive. I don't know why I just now connected that, but that's what it is, and since I'm done with passive-aggressiveness in my life, it stops now.
So... fuck it. Do whatever you want. Reply, don't reply. Cheer me up, put me down. If you think I'm being a whiny little bitch, call me on it. Just ignore whatever I say about what I want you to say.
What is with this weird bout of honesty and forthrightness? I haven't been on any cough syrup for 12 hours.