"you dont know whats going through my head, can you help me"

[bigpermalicous]

i cant believe this is happening. am i suprised, no im geniuinly not. gianna doesnt want me to be a part of her life anymore. doesnt want to talk to me ever again. i cant believe it. i guess theres nothing i can do that will ever make her feel happy again. i just tried so fucking hard to get this to work. and for a while i thought it would. i gave up my entire night last night, and got absolutley no sleep thinking about it, and for what? she tells me that she doesnt want to ever hear from me again. sweet. well im not going to rip on her. im not going to put any diss songs in here or play any mind games. i want her to be happy, and i guess that will never happen if shes talking to me. by the way, ben your a child, a fucking child. if you ever work up the balls, say something to me, because i guarantee you dont have them. make her happy, if you dont, she wont have me to comfort her. i hope this descision is one that makes you happy gianna, i love you still, and always will, but if i make you so unhappy, ill step out.

do you remeber staying up and talking so late at night
do you remeber the way you felt that first night
do you remeber all the things ive done for you
all the things i gave up for you

i remember the way you made me feel when i was with you
i remember the smile that always brought me back to you
that look in your eyes i never thought that this could be true