My venting
So kids, today I won't be writing about my girl problems, and how they make me miserable and sad...and how i could put an end to it all by just facing them and not always pussying out. no sir, today i have other stuff to talk about.
These past couple of days have been just so.....terrible. i've been in such a shitty mood. Mostly caused my stress and worries....and possibly valentine's day and how much i hate it? aww, how cute (and disgusting) couples (and soon to be couples) can be at this time of year! kind of makes me wanna barf...valentine's day also stresses me out because of the school activities that go on during the day that are supposed to be organised by student council but are actually organised by, hm let me see...ME! and a couple others. its really pissing me off how there are about 3 or 4 ppl busting their asses for the success of activities and the rest just sit back and enjoy the activities. im sorry, but by giving your name for student council, you sacrificed having fun with these activities, so you can organise them. you cant change your mind half way through the year. you commited. so either commit, and help out. or fuck off and back out. its rly annoying. the least you can do is show up to the goddamn meetings. an hour, once a week. is it that hard to stay away from your friends and gossiping with them about who you fucked the night before for only an hour a week? like god, the LEAST you can do is show up and just sit through it, you dont even have to say anything! fuck ppl have commitment issues.
I'm just rly angry with all of this right now because we have 3 activites coming up before friday and so far its been four people doing things. and the other ten..? like fuck. and i hate blaming people for shit so i get angry with myself when something goes wrong and i take the blame. but goddammit, i think it's time i start pointing fingers.
The only good part of my week so far has been play practice. I think it's because i get to finally escape everything and become someone else for two hours. Fuck it feels good sometimes. This play is gonna be real good. I'm having a lot of fun with it. Also, i found someone who loves scrubs just as much as i do...and its a teacher. I swear, M. Noekar is the coolest guy ever. I rly love our teachers.
but that's about it for now. sorry for the anger, i had to get it all off of my chest.
These past couple of days have been just so.....terrible. i've been in such a shitty mood. Mostly caused my stress and worries....and possibly valentine's day and how much i hate it? aww, how cute (and disgusting) couples (and soon to be couples) can be at this time of year! kind of makes me wanna barf...valentine's day also stresses me out because of the school activities that go on during the day that are supposed to be organised by student council but are actually organised by, hm let me see...ME! and a couple others. its really pissing me off how there are about 3 or 4 ppl busting their asses for the success of activities and the rest just sit back and enjoy the activities. im sorry, but by giving your name for student council, you sacrificed having fun with these activities, so you can organise them. you cant change your mind half way through the year. you commited. so either commit, and help out. or fuck off and back out. its rly annoying. the least you can do is show up to the goddamn meetings. an hour, once a week. is it that hard to stay away from your friends and gossiping with them about who you fucked the night before for only an hour a week? like god, the LEAST you can do is show up and just sit through it, you dont even have to say anything! fuck ppl have commitment issues.
I'm just rly angry with all of this right now because we have 3 activites coming up before friday and so far its been four people doing things. and the other ten..? like fuck. and i hate blaming people for shit so i get angry with myself when something goes wrong and i take the blame. but goddammit, i think it's time i start pointing fingers.
The only good part of my week so far has been play practice. I think it's because i get to finally escape everything and become someone else for two hours. Fuck it feels good sometimes. This play is gonna be real good. I'm having a lot of fun with it. Also, i found someone who loves scrubs just as much as i do...and its a teacher. I swear, M. Noekar is the coolest guy ever. I rly love our teachers.
but that's about it for now. sorry for the anger, i had to get it all off of my chest.