As the path turns.....
Unfortuantly the summer has almost passed. With school right around the corner it is times like theses when u really discover who you are. Ive looked back on my life and realized that is has been more then a heartache but it has also been an amazing path. I have lost 4 friends in my life time. That is almost once every five years which is a pretty bad ratio. If you count the passing of my grandfather that would be 5 deaths because he was truley a friend in my life. It is through these deaths that have made me appreciate life. Four of those deaths having been to suicide and it is the pain i have seen in their parents eyes that make me never want to go through with that. I am so blessed to have had friends to get me through the hard times. Most of them have gone their seperate ways but i still hold on to the memories. Bein a former addict, I have seen the worst in myself and in the demons in my heart. But it was faith and love that got me through the darkness. I have had my share of heartbreaks too. Being in 2 long term relationships (I am currently in one too) i have had my heart ripped into pieces. But it was through this pain that helped me find love again. I am so deeply in love with Melissa that it doesnt matter what happened in the past that i move foward and look towards the future were i want to spend every moment by her side. She is an angel in my life and she has helped me become such a stronger person. My mother too is an angel. Living on your own is never easy and i am so blessed that she has tried as hard as she could to make it easier for me. Whether it be sending money for food or just calling to tell me to keep my head up and that she loves me, it is an unconditional love that makes her the mentor, mother and friend in my life. Anyways this is not really a journal about my day but i felt like writing this to show that I AM still here I Am still standing through all my trials and errors and I have the belief that there is good in this world and with God and my friends and family life is worth living.