Something tells me 4 hours of sleep is showing its signs on me...
"Och den stund som jag kände som nära var blott alvedon,
och dom himmelska ben som jag ville förtära dom gick
där ifrån"
haha. this might sound really stupid, but I am srsly crying atm. and not because I'm sad. but because the music I'm listening to is so poetic it gives me chills. because life is beautiful. Because there are so many things I love without even thinking twice about it. Because summer holiday starts in 3 days, and I've missed it. Watching the sunrise at 4 am in the morning. Wearing shorts. Eating breakfast out on the balcony with the sun in my face. And I really love all my friends. I love my fandom. and my family.
and for some reason I feel like something changed today. I can't explain it, but.. I think it was a good change. I think I just entered another period of my life. and you know what? I can do whatever I want with it.
I am afraid my summer will be one of the prettiest summers of my life, and I couldn't be more excited.
and thinking back on last summer, I realised once again, how much I really miss you. I miss walking around stockholm with you. I miss ryo and lady gaga and the evening watching that arashi dvd where we mostly laughed over sho's pyu. I miss rich guy 1 and 2. I miss making up songs about shindong while walking to the store to buy meatballs. but really, I just miss you. A whole lot.
So, July, come quick, because I have new memories to make.