me...
times i think mi turely ok i some how arnt....zach came out believe me love having him out here love being with him....but io felt bad i cant take living here..no matter what i do its wrong no matter what...my mother yells at me again for soemthing i didnt wrong by her.....i lost my sisters cat...nice huh? not really i already felt bad about letting it out so my mother had to yell at me about it also..im sick of taking everything out on zach...he doesnt deserve it at all....but i cant help it...last night cryed as he was leaving i havent never cryed cuz he had to go home ialways knew i was going to see him again...well i dont know when im going to see him now... I MISS HIM SO MUCH and need him here but he cant be....i luv him with all my heart my father asked me the other day how i knew i luved him.... i know becuase i cant see like with out with that i cant see myself loving anyone as much as i luv him...that when im around him i feel like a little girl with a big crush on him......that when he looks at me i feel better about myself that he makes me feel better about myself.....that i stopped seeing myself as a big ugly girl......now i see what he sees....and thats perfection.....thankyou zach for everthing you have even done for me and im sorry about this week.....i luv you!!! ttyl
Lauren