life seems better with you around
last night when zach was leaving i starting thinking about everything i know i talk about how much i luv him and all the bullshit but last night i started to cry thinking about the way i felt about him. the way things feel with him the way i feel with him...he puts up with alot from me and i know that im the biggest grump ever!! like he tells me all the time...i know that! but i dont know where i would be without him...i never had a thought inm my head that i would be this in love with him...I mean the feelings i had for tim cant even compare to this feeling right now....The way he looks at me makes me feel better. the way he holds me and touches me. think im going to start crying talking about it now. I have never loved someone like i love him!! and not being able to talk to him right now makes me really really sad. only 5 hours till i can talk to him but that seems to long. i know i truly do love him because i know i couldnt live without him. the pain would be to much. I want to be with him the rest of my life. and ill do anything to make it so. ..things with my mother and father seem not so good my father still cant find a job meaning we most likely will be moving.. and i think thats why my father doesnt want me to see zach as much... getten hurt and all...he was there when tim left me and how bad i was off of that he doesnt want me to be like that again...but i wont i know even if we move that i can wait for zach as long as he waits for me. Ill be 18 in less then a year so i can be with him then and they cant tell me other wise. I know im young but when you feel like somethings right you have to go for it... in my family life is short things leave as fast as they enter your life. and i dont want zach to leave not now not ever... but if that time come ill be ok cuz i know i luv him now and i know he luvs me, and thats all that matter right now.
umm lets see this week end was great....everytime im with you it gets better and better...other then me dropping my phone in water...and not being able to talk to you as much now but its ok!!
I LOVE YOU ZACH ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!