i dont ask fro much....really i dont
i dont ask for much more then i need...i know i have more then alot but soon have less then alot. its getten really bad around here i mean with my mother and father and me we are great for some reason when we dont have money and shit we get along and its great...but we are give a jeep back cuz we cant pay for it not that big of a deal but yet it is....i dont really want anything this x miss again ...well i do like everyone but know i cant act like i do to my mother and father. i have to be strong like every year...i really dont get it my father and mother some how dont ever have a job on the passed threee years of my bday and xmiss.....just some how never do. my mother is a great mother we have had our bad and our really bad and to the point of my leaving but when i need her she is there and its great to know that we are best friends again. My father has started to talk to me again which i really great im so happy about that. i mean i just need people in my life right now and i feel l have very little. I miss having my best friend to be tehre no matter what. i miss seeing zach and being with him two weeks and not seeing him sucks. then thinking i might have lost him hurt even more. so yeah seeing him this weekend i hope!!!! I NEED TO!!! ummm thing with my sister ummm nothing really different she is my sister and thats about it if i need her shes there but other wise i stay away from her. im trying not to worrie about anything like my mother keeps telling me but there is just this big hole saying something bad is going to happen and i dont know when or what. One thing about me i dont like not knowing about something. i had a great day with my mother and father today i mean it we sat together ate dinner and watched tv... i luved it It was like old times...I miss them alot. then i went to joshs for a while and was hanging out with him....cool cool there watched some tv with him and his little sister luv her to death cutest thing other then my babys you will ever see..lol yeah then he took me home and and think i might go back over there tomorrow his little sister wanted to play with me...but yeha dont know.....i have to work firday and saturday....hope zach can come saturday!!!!! well i should go to bed told my motehr i would help her in the morning night night all and have a happy thanksgiving and remember that you have more then many and the people around you and truly care about is what x miss and thanksgiving is all about. not the food or the shit you get. but who your with.... i would give up everything to have a x miss with my grandma maybe one day i will....night all