thinking alot......
ive been thinking about alot of things....
like about myself and all
I know i dont know who i am and everything where my life is going and everything with it...
Im with zach luv him to death but is it bad if i cant see myself with my 10 years from now....i dont see myself with anyone not just him...I dont see myself in 10 years i dont know where ill be i just know not here...thinking about how my life will be makes me sad so i have to stop thinking about that and think about the now...starting school in about 3 days happy happy!! like no other!!! cant wait just dont want to see tim!! at all...i dont know how things are going to be this year last year i had my best friend by myside and what i thought was the greatest guy ever with me... i mean what will this year bring most likely more drama!! as always dont have any friends who are going to go away if they do fine not that big of a deal im not putting myself out there for anyone other then zach and if that messes up then im just done like i was before! i found out that i didnt need someone to make me happy that i didnt need a best friend cuz one day they are just going to kick you in the ass anyways! and fuck you over like everyone else.....this summer has been one of the best never for get it!!! me and my sister still dont talk that much but i dont think we ever will but its cool...My mother has become my best friend again which i luv! im glad my motehr can be there for me and everything im glad we got back to that point in our life!! my father is good i guess...my mother and him are happy which is great! got to go to ky which rocked!!! got to see my grandma and grandpa and my family AND MY BROTHER!!!! I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!! and josh!! luv ya babe!! got to see sara's grave sad but im glad i went and seen that......came home and had alots of dates lol with lots of guys cuz im a pimp!! lol then now im going out with the greatest guy ever!! so yeah got a shitty job but yeah!! got my internship cant wait for that!!! yay!! SCHOOL!!!!
yeah thats about it bye bye
Lauren
like about myself and all
I know i dont know who i am and everything where my life is going and everything with it...
Im with zach luv him to death but is it bad if i cant see myself with my 10 years from now....i dont see myself with anyone not just him...I dont see myself in 10 years i dont know where ill be i just know not here...thinking about how my life will be makes me sad so i have to stop thinking about that and think about the now...starting school in about 3 days happy happy!! like no other!!! cant wait just dont want to see tim!! at all...i dont know how things are going to be this year last year i had my best friend by myside and what i thought was the greatest guy ever with me... i mean what will this year bring most likely more drama!! as always dont have any friends who are going to go away if they do fine not that big of a deal im not putting myself out there for anyone other then zach and if that messes up then im just done like i was before! i found out that i didnt need someone to make me happy that i didnt need a best friend cuz one day they are just going to kick you in the ass anyways! and fuck you over like everyone else.....this summer has been one of the best never for get it!!! me and my sister still dont talk that much but i dont think we ever will but its cool...My mother has become my best friend again which i luv! im glad my motehr can be there for me and everything im glad we got back to that point in our life!! my father is good i guess...my mother and him are happy which is great! got to go to ky which rocked!!! got to see my grandma and grandpa and my family AND MY BROTHER!!!! I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!! and josh!! luv ya babe!! got to see sara's grave sad but im glad i went and seen that......came home and had alots of dates lol with lots of guys cuz im a pimp!! lol then now im going out with the greatest guy ever!! so yeah got a shitty job but yeah!! got my internship cant wait for that!!! yay!! SCHOOL!!!!
yeah thats about it bye bye
Lauren