*yawn*
so its 2am and guess where i am? it seems to be my second home now days. the computer lab. well, im here, i just got done typing a paper that im getting payed $50 for and im just relaxing and listening to the planets. I have another paper to do but its alot shorter then the one that i just got done with so i figure that i'll just do it tommorow before class (Bad Chris).
so today was a fun day, a long day but fun. last night i had spent the night at Jeffs and we hung out playing video games. so he woke me up at 7am (bastard) and we were going to go to a soccer game, but i jsut had him bring me home instead. so im sneaking into my house at 7am cause i never exactly told my paretns that i'd be spending the night at his house. i started freaking out because my dog was downstairs and she wouldnt be there unless my parents were up because she sleeps with them and when my mom is home, they sleep with the door closed (she hates having the cats on her bed). so i find that odd, then i find it odd when they arent downstairs, but they arent up in there bed. so i just shrug it off and jump into my own bed. im sleeping but not really because im trying to keep my self half awake so i dont sleep to late. during this time Beth, my sister, comes into my room and tells me that my mom took my dad into the hospital at 2:30am last night...that kinda freaks me out cause this is like 10:30 in the morning. well, theres not much i can do at that time so i shrug it off and go back to sleep. i eventually wake up around noon and my parents came home. im not sure why he went in as i didnt ask but it didnt seem to be to major.
I then called my friend Jenn to see if she wanted to do anything. she said sure so i went and picked her up. this was good because she's pretty much my best girl friend and i hardly ever get to see her anymore because im always away at school. but we went out to Barnes and Noble and looked around and we got some coffee. hanging out with her was fun but it was also hard because it brought back past thoughts and memorys and feelings to me that i sometimes want to leave behind and not think of but i can never seem to let go off. so i dropped her off and then me and my mom went out to a later lunch/early dinner before i had to go back to school. im not to sure why me and her went out to eat because in my family, we dont exactly exspress our feelings and emotions towards each other. we are not a touchy feely family. we do our own things and we clash sometimes. (my god, is this what sleep deprivation causes me to write?) so anyways, we went out to dinner and i refilled out the paper work for my insulin pump that UofM had lost. so then i came back and just waited around till Ky and Matt came to come get me.
I managed to survive the car ride back to school and i started into the process of settling into school for the long haul. i wont be able to go home for the next three weeks so its going to be hard because its usually a struggle to make it thorugh a 2 week period. but so i wandered around the dorm, talking to people and then i finally got to dedicating myself to a paper that i have to due. but then an offer came along for where if i wrote out a paper on the Gregorian monks, i get payed $50. so i've been doing that for most of tonight along with trying to talk to Kate. she's been in bad moods lately and i feel like its partly my fault, that i dont give her what she needs and that im not home enough for her. i know that shes stressed out right now and im just hoping for it to eventually subside so she can be happy again.
but anyways, yeah, its 2:40 and im not tired right now. im talking Heather, but she's busy and isnt really talking much...she's one person that i really miss hanging out with this summer. we were never really friends before and personally, i didnt really think that she liked me that much. but over the summer we hung out a few times and i found out that she's a good person and a fun person to hang out with. she's someone who i can talk to when ever i need something and she wont judge me
o my god, i jsut realized how much im rambling, so im going to go to bed. good night all, pray that i managed to clear my bed off without to much trouble so i can collapse and get some sleep before i start this whole process again in 6 hours.
so today was a fun day, a long day but fun. last night i had spent the night at Jeffs and we hung out playing video games. so he woke me up at 7am (bastard) and we were going to go to a soccer game, but i jsut had him bring me home instead. so im sneaking into my house at 7am cause i never exactly told my paretns that i'd be spending the night at his house. i started freaking out because my dog was downstairs and she wouldnt be there unless my parents were up because she sleeps with them and when my mom is home, they sleep with the door closed (she hates having the cats on her bed). so i find that odd, then i find it odd when they arent downstairs, but they arent up in there bed. so i just shrug it off and jump into my own bed. im sleeping but not really because im trying to keep my self half awake so i dont sleep to late. during this time Beth, my sister, comes into my room and tells me that my mom took my dad into the hospital at 2:30am last night...that kinda freaks me out cause this is like 10:30 in the morning. well, theres not much i can do at that time so i shrug it off and go back to sleep. i eventually wake up around noon and my parents came home. im not sure why he went in as i didnt ask but it didnt seem to be to major.
I then called my friend Jenn to see if she wanted to do anything. she said sure so i went and picked her up. this was good because she's pretty much my best girl friend and i hardly ever get to see her anymore because im always away at school. but we went out to Barnes and Noble and looked around and we got some coffee. hanging out with her was fun but it was also hard because it brought back past thoughts and memorys and feelings to me that i sometimes want to leave behind and not think of but i can never seem to let go off. so i dropped her off and then me and my mom went out to a later lunch/early dinner before i had to go back to school. im not to sure why me and her went out to eat because in my family, we dont exactly exspress our feelings and emotions towards each other. we are not a touchy feely family. we do our own things and we clash sometimes. (my god, is this what sleep deprivation causes me to write?) so anyways, we went out to dinner and i refilled out the paper work for my insulin pump that UofM had lost. so then i came back and just waited around till Ky and Matt came to come get me.
I managed to survive the car ride back to school and i started into the process of settling into school for the long haul. i wont be able to go home for the next three weeks so its going to be hard because its usually a struggle to make it thorugh a 2 week period. but so i wandered around the dorm, talking to people and then i finally got to dedicating myself to a paper that i have to due. but then an offer came along for where if i wrote out a paper on the Gregorian monks, i get payed $50. so i've been doing that for most of tonight along with trying to talk to Kate. she's been in bad moods lately and i feel like its partly my fault, that i dont give her what she needs and that im not home enough for her. i know that shes stressed out right now and im just hoping for it to eventually subside so she can be happy again.
but anyways, yeah, its 2:40 and im not tired right now. im talking Heather, but she's busy and isnt really talking much...she's one person that i really miss hanging out with this summer. we were never really friends before and personally, i didnt really think that she liked me that much. but over the summer we hung out a few times and i found out that she's a good person and a fun person to hang out with. she's someone who i can talk to when ever i need something and she wont judge me
o my god, i jsut realized how much im rambling, so im going to go to bed. good night all, pray that i managed to clear my bed off without to much trouble so i can collapse and get some sleep before i start this whole process again in 6 hours.