Rain, Rain, Please Do Stay
Its raining outside. Good observation i know. I'm in the mood for this rain today, which is good since it is and all. This has actually been my mood for about a week now. Just kind of sober, malcontent, gloomy, i dont know. Just not happy or depressed, just inbetween. My emotions are in purgatory i guess. A lot has been going down lately. I'm not going to get into any of it, cause for one I've learned that people like to read this stuff then tell everyone. This site has basically just gotten me in trouble. I guess typing down your feelings and getting griped at is in the same family. I just got back from my doctor who checks out my back. My doctor told me all this mumbo jumbo about my back which just basically in my terms means "your back is still pretty much fucked up and we have no clue how to fix it but give you more of the crap that hasnt been working." maybe a little on the pestimistic side, but pretty much is the truth. I had no where else to go afterwards so i came home and im bout to just up and leave again for guitar lessons at 6:30. My guitar teacher is gone and i have a substitute today. I have problem with playing in front of people and i'm just now kind of getting over that with my teacher and now im just thrown a totally new person. Hope he doesnt just think i totally suck. I'm just now learning how to play the chords to Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison. I was also given a little musical project by my teacher and that is to learn how to play Prelude by Bach. It's coming along fine i guess. I wish i was little more ahead on it and i think my teacher feels the same way. Can't please everbody. That needs to be pretty much my overall saying for life, "cant please everybody". Ain't that the truth. People are so fucking hard to please. Everyone wants something different from you. It gets tiring after a while. I'm beat.