Well...........................
Redemption is a good thing I guess, at least when you can cash in on it before it's too late. The last 24 hours of my life have been quite the emotional roller coaster. I learned that I drove the one thing in my life that makes me most happy to a point where she felt she had to start looking elsewhere. I get a second chance though, call it my one year anniversary present I guess. I believe that it's a good sign to see that she's willing to let me fix what I broke and doesn't just want to cut ties and be gone. I'm going to need help though, I know right now i'm going to need probably everyone especially you Jessica to help me through this. I'm not out of the woods yet though, i've only found a path that I feel will lead me out. I just hope you understand i'm going to do probably anything to make this work. I didn't come this far to fuck up the oppertunity I have. Some of this is going to be on you though, there are some things and some issues I talked about that need to be addressed, although they all kinda tie into each other, but it's still going to be important that i'm there. not all of the time, I respect girls night out and what not, but most of the time. There isn't any reason that you cannot have fun and act stupid at some guys house or just out and about with me there, and that more than anything is when I want to be there. I want you to be confortable and have fun in those situations when I am there. I don't want it to be like it was where you have to be away from me to have fun. I'm going to make sure I fix all that though. That's all for now, words don't really describe how I felt and what I have to do anyways. This is going to be a long process and and it's going to be done right and with the results I expect which are nothing short of perfection. I'll keep everyone informed and we'll all watch this fall into place. PEACE.