For the Baby
Jaejoong sat frozen, like a statue, to his chair. He did not move, he did not speak, he just stared into tin air, like it would magical give him the solution to his problem.
“Mr. Kim? Mr Kim, are you alright? Mr kim?”
“Yes” he answered quietly.
“I know this must come as a shock to you, but it not that bad. It is quit rare, but I'm sure we can get you through it. You just consider your options and you come back here next week alright?
Jaejoong nodded slowly and got up.
“Thank you, doctor”
The doctor just smiled and followed him to the door.
Jaejoong bowed and walked out.
He walked slowly out of the hospital and got into his car.
When he got home, the house was empty, just like he expected. He went to the kitchen and started cooking dinner. When it was done, he put it aside, looked at the clock and realized that it was still a little while until his husband was home. He walked into the bathroom and took the clean clothes out of the washer and went to hang it up. Just then he heard the door opening and he saw his husband walk in. He hurried to put down the basket and went to greet him.
Yunho smiled at him and opened his arms to give his boo a hug, kissing him on the cheek as he did so.
“Hey boo, I finished early today”
“I’m glad” Jaejoong said with a small smile
“How was your day boo?”
“Fine” was the quiet reply.
“Really?” He didn't seem convinced, his boo was clinging to him, not letting go.
“Yeah” was all he got
Yunho sighted, he knew he wouldn't get any more out of him.
They just stood there hugging for awhile, before Jaejoong let go and told him dinner was ready.
Dinner was a quiet affair. Jaejoong was staring out in the air with a far away look in his eyes and Yunho was afraid to say anything to disturb him. After they were done eating, Jaejoong stood up and took the dishes to the sink. Afterwards he sat down at the table, were Yunho sat still, waiting for what his boo was gonna say. Jaejoong sat and stared down in the table, trying to find his words, while Yunho sat patiently and waited. They always did sit at the dinner table if they were to discuss something serious. After a while Jaejoong looked up from the table and straight into Yunho’s eyes.
“I don’t quit know how to say this, but...” he hesitated
“What is it baby?” Yunho sad softly
Jaejoong drew a long breath before he said
“I'm pregnant”
The silence in the house was deafening.
“What?” It came out as a sharp and quiet hiss.
Jaejoong flinched. This was exactly what he had been afraid of.
“What do you mean you’re pregnant? We always use a condom.”
“I know.” Jaejoong said in his smallest voice. “But it can happen anyway, you know that condoms do not always hold.”
“Maybe this is god’s way if telling me you're cheating on me.” Yunho’s was beyond angry.
“NO! You know I would never do that! I love you more than anything!”
Yunho shock his head “It’s not mine!”
“Yes it is! I haven't cheated on you.”
“YES YOU HAVE!” Yunho shouted. “I know you have, you always have somebody over when I'm away on business trips” He kicked his chair to the ground when he stood up in anger, yelling down at Jaejoong.
“What? Where did you get that crazy idea?”
“Don't deny it” his angry eyes staring into his husband confused ones.
“How else did you suddenly learn so many new techniques all of a sudden?
How else did you suddenly want to dominate? You never have before! You must have learned it somewhere.”
At this Jaejoong got quiet, a look of understanding coming over his eyes.
Yunho just stood there glancing hard at Jaejoong, breathing hard, trying to catch his breath after the yelling.
Jaejoong just turned around and went to their bedroom, getting to his knees in front of the night stand. Yunho followed behind him, wondering what he was up to.
He pulled out a book. Ultimate gay sex the cover read.
“I got it from Junsu.. he said that I have too keep the sex fresh and exiting.. I just didn’t want you to go tired of me…” Jaejoong looked embarrassed and ashamed
“I take a paternity test if you want me to!”
Youho felt so stupid. How could he have doubted his sweet jooniee?
He fell to his knees in front of his husband and hugged him
“ No of course not…I am soo sorry I doubted you boo.. I am just so scared of loosing you to someone else when I am so much away” yunho tried to explain “and when we have been so careful about using condoms, I just felt that all my fears were real”
“ I know, it came to as a shock to me too” jaejoong said,” but I would never cheat on you Yunho”
Yunho felt like crap.. his sweet husband was so kind and thouthfull.. he wasn’t even mad at him for being a dirt bad..
“ How far are you along baby?” Yunho smiled reassuringly.
” Three months” Jaejoong smiled with tears in his eyes.
Yunho pulled him in to a hug.
“I’m so happy baby” Yunho whispered in his ear “I take such good care of you and our baby”
Jaejoong hugged him back tightly, letting out a sob of happiness and relief.
He was so glad his husband finally calmed down.
Yunho would support him and take care of him and his baby and they would be happy together.
Jaejoong would take this secret to the grave. His child deserved loving parents and a happy home. He had to do this. Yunho would never know.
“Mr. Kim? Mr Kim, are you alright? Mr kim?”
“Yes” he answered quietly.
“I know this must come as a shock to you, but it not that bad. It is quit rare, but I'm sure we can get you through it. You just consider your options and you come back here next week alright?
Jaejoong nodded slowly and got up.
“Thank you, doctor”
The doctor just smiled and followed him to the door.
Jaejoong bowed and walked out.
He walked slowly out of the hospital and got into his car.
When he got home, the house was empty, just like he expected. He went to the kitchen and started cooking dinner. When it was done, he put it aside, looked at the clock and realized that it was still a little while until his husband was home. He walked into the bathroom and took the clean clothes out of the washer and went to hang it up. Just then he heard the door opening and he saw his husband walk in. He hurried to put down the basket and went to greet him.
Yunho smiled at him and opened his arms to give his boo a hug, kissing him on the cheek as he did so.
“Hey boo, I finished early today”
“I’m glad” Jaejoong said with a small smile
“How was your day boo?”
“Fine” was the quiet reply.
“Really?” He didn't seem convinced, his boo was clinging to him, not letting go.
“Yeah” was all he got
Yunho sighted, he knew he wouldn't get any more out of him.
They just stood there hugging for awhile, before Jaejoong let go and told him dinner was ready.
Dinner was a quiet affair. Jaejoong was staring out in the air with a far away look in his eyes and Yunho was afraid to say anything to disturb him. After they were done eating, Jaejoong stood up and took the dishes to the sink. Afterwards he sat down at the table, were Yunho sat still, waiting for what his boo was gonna say. Jaejoong sat and stared down in the table, trying to find his words, while Yunho sat patiently and waited. They always did sit at the dinner table if they were to discuss something serious. After a while Jaejoong looked up from the table and straight into Yunho’s eyes.
“I don’t quit know how to say this, but...” he hesitated
“What is it baby?” Yunho sad softly
Jaejoong drew a long breath before he said
“I'm pregnant”
The silence in the house was deafening.
“What?” It came out as a sharp and quiet hiss.
Jaejoong flinched. This was exactly what he had been afraid of.
“What do you mean you’re pregnant? We always use a condom.”
“I know.” Jaejoong said in his smallest voice. “But it can happen anyway, you know that condoms do not always hold.”
“Maybe this is god’s way if telling me you're cheating on me.” Yunho’s was beyond angry.
“NO! You know I would never do that! I love you more than anything!”
Yunho shock his head “It’s not mine!”
“Yes it is! I haven't cheated on you.”
“YES YOU HAVE!” Yunho shouted. “I know you have, you always have somebody over when I'm away on business trips” He kicked his chair to the ground when he stood up in anger, yelling down at Jaejoong.
“What? Where did you get that crazy idea?”
“Don't deny it” his angry eyes staring into his husband confused ones.
“How else did you suddenly learn so many new techniques all of a sudden?
How else did you suddenly want to dominate? You never have before! You must have learned it somewhere.”
At this Jaejoong got quiet, a look of understanding coming over his eyes.
Yunho just stood there glancing hard at Jaejoong, breathing hard, trying to catch his breath after the yelling.
Jaejoong just turned around and went to their bedroom, getting to his knees in front of the night stand. Yunho followed behind him, wondering what he was up to.
He pulled out a book. Ultimate gay sex the cover read.
“I got it from Junsu.. he said that I have too keep the sex fresh and exiting.. I just didn’t want you to go tired of me…” Jaejoong looked embarrassed and ashamed
“I take a paternity test if you want me to!”
Youho felt so stupid. How could he have doubted his sweet jooniee?
He fell to his knees in front of his husband and hugged him
“ No of course not…I am soo sorry I doubted you boo.. I am just so scared of loosing you to someone else when I am so much away” yunho tried to explain “and when we have been so careful about using condoms, I just felt that all my fears were real”
“ I know, it came to as a shock to me too” jaejoong said,” but I would never cheat on you Yunho”
Yunho felt like crap.. his sweet husband was so kind and thouthfull.. he wasn’t even mad at him for being a dirt bad..
“ How far are you along baby?” Yunho smiled reassuringly.
” Three months” Jaejoong smiled with tears in his eyes.
Yunho pulled him in to a hug.
“I’m so happy baby” Yunho whispered in his ear “I take such good care of you and our baby”
Jaejoong hugged him back tightly, letting out a sob of happiness and relief.
He was so glad his husband finally calmed down.
Yunho would support him and take care of him and his baby and they would be happy together.
Jaejoong would take this secret to the grave. His child deserved loving parents and a happy home. He had to do this. Yunho would never know.