The end to a spectacular 24 hours...
Yesterday had a spectacular start. I picked up my girlfriend, Jessica, so that we could go shopping. She had something to return and so did I. We were originally going to go to Lakeside, but due to a possible position change for myself at work we decided to go to Great Lakes Crossings instead so that we could stop at the Auburn Hills Best Buy.
We had a blast at the mall. I really enjoyed the time we spent together. Jess is really something when she shops. I enjoyed going in and out of all kinds of different stores together. It was fun, even with the time constraints we had because she had to go to work.
While Jess was at work I did some shopping of my own. I was at the store twice, once to do some shopping and once more to handle a customer issue and talk with my General Manager. I earned some great insight talking with her and soon will have my replacement so that I can further my career with Best Buy.
Jess and I talked for a long time last night. We talked mainly about our relationship. I understand that she's very scared about where it's going. It's a very different relationship from any other she's had and I understand that. Though, it doesn't help at all when certain people e-mail her, stating, "Have you read his live journal, he's just using you..." I have two things to say to that. First, "Bullshit!" I am not leading Jessica on. Secondly, "Move On!!!" I don't mean to be so entirely blunt in my statement, but.... it's time to start looking for another girlfriend. Granted, I know first hand how incredible Jess is, and I know how hard it would be to just move on, so I don't blame you, but it would be better for both of you, in my opinion... (especially if you want to stay friends...) to give each other time. Jess already moved on and you need to as well.
I know people from Best Buy read this journal (Hi Jen Petz) and so do others from other people's friend's lists, etc. Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck what anyone thinks about the relationship Jessica and I are forming. She and I are the only people that matter in this relationship. We both said at some point last night that a relationship is hard work and takes a little giving and bending by both sides. Jess, I know you've given a lot in order to be with me.. and I now need to give in return. I am genuinely in love with you and as I promised you, will do anything to make this work.
You have shown me in this past month how wonderful and happy a person can be when they're in a relationship. Thank you for all you've done for me, comforting me on the anniversary of my Dad's death, encouraging me at work, adn overall just being there when I need someone to talk to. You said last night that whatever happens you want to be there for me. The easy thing to do would be just quit and forget everything wonderful we've experienced. I don't want to quit. We've both come so far and we can continue to grow together, as people. I love you, Jessica, hopefully as much as you love me... but I know you think you love me more...