When the lights go down in the city....
Recently I have been thinking about my old friends. One in particular, Dustin. Me and him have gone through so much together and to see how everything ended up is really shocking. We both liked each other since like 4th grade, we went out 7 times, he was my first love, we went through so much. The Thanksgiving break of last year was the last time we were together. After we broke up it seemed like his life went to hell. He started doing heavier drugs. Once he started doing those drugs it was like he was a different person. I was never able to get through to him. He never really cared about anything after awhile. I dont know when but I guess sometime recently he started doing even heavier drugs. And now he is in placement. It really sucks but I miss the old him. Im not saying I still like him because thats not the case at all. Im just saying I miss our friendship and the way he use to treat me. Now its like I dont even exist to him. I pass him going to class and its like looking at a ghost. Theres nothing there anymore. He has no emotions or anything at all. Its kinda like hes dead to me? It hurts to think that someone I cared about so much has changed as much as he has. If I were to even go up and talk to him I wouldnt know what to say because he is so different now. It really makes me think of how much drugs can change a person and Im glad Im not in to them because I would never want the people who cared the most about me to go through what I am with him. It hurts to loose one of your best fiends to a man made drug. I just remember him promising me he would never do anything besides smoke weed, but I guess he could never really keep a promise. I remember so many happy and fun memories with him and to know its never going to be the same sucks. When I was in elementary and Jr. high use to always think me, Heather, Dustin, Eli, and Mallory would grow and be best friends till we graduated. But people change as they get older and I found that out the hard way. Im glad to say me and Heather are still bestfriends and I dont know what I would do without her. I do have other friends that I have known just as long, but they didnt go through everything with the group we had, but I still love them too. I just had to get all that out. It has been bugging me for a while now.