killl me now please

[biggiepittz]

so yesterday we had umm a 5k erg test at crew and i hate erging so much this wasnt much of a picnic for me. so i sucked the penis (not literally) and did not that well of a job and yuri was sure to let us know that. he said we basically cant row in the same boat as ashley and emily becuase we are so much worse (we being me maria katelynn and olivia) so that was good for the motivation and hes making us do it again next wednesday..it was going to be tomorrow but umm we complained with good reason. hes trying to put the charles 4 together which umm wont be me so its ok. i was actually truly thinking about quitting crew today just because the way he puts down everyone but ashley and emily is not right at all. i mean we work our butts off and where does it get us? it gets yuri yelling at us and telling us were not good enough..so i thought if im not good enough why am i here? but the winter will be such a nice break from crew and i dont think im doing summer next year either just because thats overkill and i found that out this year so im never doing all 4 seasons again..ever so yeah thats my story for today and i really missed jenny yesterday on the ergs..its definitly not the same as it was but tommy isnt doing too shabby..but jenny *sigh i guess she will be back in the spring but thats a hell of awhile away..oh well i better go before i get myself worked up
night