UPDATE
You know, things are pretty decent.
I have a great support system with a few good people in place. I have an awesome brotha' in lqc whom I can't even thank enough always being there. I have a new circle of friends to go with the established one to keep things exciting and new. And I am slowly getting to know a girl who has the amazing ability to make me laugh SO MUCH.
I've pretty much arrived at the point where in facing my pain, I've made myself stronger. And now I can give a big "fuck you!" to that pain and know that I didn't need to run or hide from it. And I am more certain than ever that these past few years, even though it's been hard, I've done the right thing. I've been a good person. I haven't compromised relationship goals just to ease loneliness. And I've made progress in getting to a healthier place in body and mind.
I've stumbled a lot. And lord knows I'll fall in the future. But right now, my feet are on solid ground, and I'm holding steady. Yeah, that's a WIN.
For you AOKPers, I officially have my ninth Younger Sibling. Nine! Holy shit that's a lot! And currently one of my other Youngers is Sovereign! I have three active Grandyoungers! Where does all the time go? At least I don't have Great-Grandyongers yet. And Derek is a nice kid. Hehe... kid. We are similar in a lot of ways. All the new Pages are great. They are geeky, enthusiastic, and seem to already have some established bonds. The best thing, everyone else is picking up on the enthusiasm. These are the things that keep me showing up on Thursdays.
I have a great support system with a few good people in place. I have an awesome brotha' in lqc whom I can't even thank enough always being there. I have a new circle of friends to go with the established one to keep things exciting and new. And I am slowly getting to know a girl who has the amazing ability to make me laugh SO MUCH.
I've pretty much arrived at the point where in facing my pain, I've made myself stronger. And now I can give a big "fuck you!" to that pain and know that I didn't need to run or hide from it. And I am more certain than ever that these past few years, even though it's been hard, I've done the right thing. I've been a good person. I haven't compromised relationship goals just to ease loneliness. And I've made progress in getting to a healthier place in body and mind.
I've stumbled a lot. And lord knows I'll fall in the future. But right now, my feet are on solid ground, and I'm holding steady. Yeah, that's a WIN.
For you AOKPers, I officially have my ninth Younger Sibling. Nine! Holy shit that's a lot! And currently one of my other Youngers is Sovereign! I have three active Grandyoungers! Where does all the time go? At least I don't have Great-Grandyongers yet. And Derek is a nice kid. Hehe... kid. We are similar in a lot of ways. All the new Pages are great. They are geeky, enthusiastic, and seem to already have some established bonds. The best thing, everyone else is picking up on the enthusiasm. These are the things that keep me showing up on Thursdays.