Confused?
Hello!
This is my first time posting to livejournal in general, so bear with me haha. Anyways, I've been very confused about my gender lately and when I discovered the term 'bigender', it represented everything I was confused about. I've been so sure of it the last couple days, but today, I was kind of on the fence about it. I actually started to think that I wasn't bigendered at all and there was something mentally wrong with me, but I knew deep down that this is who I am and what described me the best. It's just that ever since I was little, I've always identified with boys. I remember when me and my friends played games I would always feel more comfortable if I was a boy instead of a girl. But other times, I was comfortable as a girl. When I got older, I was fine with being a girl, but I wasn't really happy or comfortable in my body. I knew I wasn't trans* because I researched it over and over and it didn't seem to connect with me. So when I discovered this term I was really happy because all my confusion was gone. Then all of a sudden, it reappears this morning. I haven't really talked to anyone about this, seeing as how my parents are both extremely religious and my family is already homophobic and transphobic. I was just wondering, am I really bigendered? Do I need to see a gender therapist in order to find out? Have any of you ever been confused about it?
Thank you.
This is my first time posting to livejournal in general, so bear with me haha. Anyways, I've been very confused about my gender lately and when I discovered the term 'bigender', it represented everything I was confused about. I've been so sure of it the last couple days, but today, I was kind of on the fence about it. I actually started to think that I wasn't bigendered at all and there was something mentally wrong with me, but I knew deep down that this is who I am and what described me the best. It's just that ever since I was little, I've always identified with boys. I remember when me and my friends played games I would always feel more comfortable if I was a boy instead of a girl. But other times, I was comfortable as a girl. When I got older, I was fine with being a girl, but I wasn't really happy or comfortable in my body. I knew I wasn't trans* because I researched it over and over and it didn't seem to connect with me. So when I discovered this term I was really happy because all my confusion was gone. Then all of a sudden, it reappears this morning. I haven't really talked to anyone about this, seeing as how my parents are both extremely religious and my family is already homophobic and transphobic. I was just wondering, am I really bigendered? Do I need to see a gender therapist in order to find out? Have any of you ever been confused about it?
Thank you.