NO MORE REGRETS!!!!!!(Thank You Lord!)

[bigearthjosh]

Tuesday, April 5, 2005. A day that will live in infamy (for me anyway). Right now I feel higher than air because I literally have no more regrets. What happened? I'll tell you. I took the day off to kind of chill out and get myself together. I went to the beach and just listened to some music on my MP3 player and I had a thought. I would go to Jessica's mother's house and say hello. Now in the past, I would decline such a notion because I don't want to re-hash such memories. But I went anyway. I walk up to the door and lo and behold who do I see, none other but Jessica and her new boyfriend! Now normally if I was younger, I would stomp that cat out but I am much more of a mature person. I was cordial and I only stayed for about 5 minutes, said my hellos and my goodbyes. But what made me feel awesome was when I had a chance to get what was on my chest off about my feelings for Jessica. I flat out told her that she hurt, used, and abused me. She put me through so much mental anguish and pain and in the end, almost it almost costed me my life. And then, I told her that I still care, but I never need to see her again. And after I said that, the weight, pain and anguish came off of my shoulders. I carried that burden for so long and to get that off my chest, made me feel like a million bucks! Now, I can move to Tallahassee without any regrets and go find that person that is for me! Well, I'm gonna go to sleep! Class and work tomorrow!

God Bless Ya and as always, much love and respect!

Dat Duval Boy

"If I had to do it all again, I wouldn't take the rain away, 'cause I know it made me what I am!"
-Faith Evans "Again"