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Sanctus Real, "I'm Not Alright" from The Face Of Love
If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then “cool” is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall
Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth, I need to confess
I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you
Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I’m open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on
Cause honestly, I’m not that strong
I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...
I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
Leads me to you, leads me to you
I’m not alright, I’m not alright, I’m not alright...that’s why I need you
I was listening to this song on the way home from work and it just hit me to how true it is to my life and my constant, unrelenting struggle of my faith vs. the world. I know that I am not the best Christian, I never will be, but I hope I never get the idea that I am a "good" Christian. I think pride is very dangerous in anything, especially religion. God is love, I know that, and I strive... at times, to be a good christian. When this song talks about how the singer is "not alright" I get it.. I have a good life, a wonderful family and an amazing girlfriend but outside of church I always feel like I am slightly off... in church, I feel.. full is a good word to describe it. I love going to church. I think if I make the little changes that I want to in my life, that feeling from church will be free to follow into my daily life. I think thats where the christian community gets seperated. Their are those who go to church on sunday and then live the week without another thought. I want to be one of those who lives for Sunday, who thinks about God daily, throws up little prayers daily and lives a life like everyday is Sunday. I do some of that now, but I know I cant do it without help and that it will be a struggle. Changing the way I ate was one thing, but changing my attitude and language is another step because those are such instant things, espcially for me since I talk without thinking... effort and time.
Im broken inside. no doubt. but I know who can fix me.