Being single sucks
I'm not even single, but I feel the same feelings that a single person going through an emotional train wreck would experience. Wes and I are almost done. Things are messed, and I don't even think he gives a shit to notice that. I've been cheating on him and even though I can't imagine it happening, a part of me thinks he's cheating on me too. I have feelings for this guy who has feelings for me too and we're fooling around but my life is a little pile of lies and shit, we know nothing would work out. I just watched the Butterfly Effect and it made me wish that when I screw stuff up I could just change the past that will change my future.
I'm doing such horrible shit that I never expected I would be doing, and for what? For a little excitement?...The thing is, I can't stop. And I barely feel bad enough to care. I'm having stress problems where my heart wont stop pounding for days and I feel like I'm going to puke all the time and I can barely breathe. It's such an overdramatic thing when it's not a huge deal I guess. I feel like a 13 year old girl when the biggest problem in life is if a boy likes you and it becomes the problem of the century.
I hurt. Plain and simple. I don't know what I'm doing nor what to do. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up forgetting all the bad shit and feeling happy about whatever the day endures.
Whatever, eff it.
"Wouldn't it be nice if we were older, then we wouldn't have to wait so long" - Beach Boys
I'm doing such horrible shit that I never expected I would be doing, and for what? For a little excitement?...The thing is, I can't stop. And I barely feel bad enough to care. I'm having stress problems where my heart wont stop pounding for days and I feel like I'm going to puke all the time and I can barely breathe. It's such an overdramatic thing when it's not a huge deal I guess. I feel like a 13 year old girl when the biggest problem in life is if a boy likes you and it becomes the problem of the century.
I hurt. Plain and simple. I don't know what I'm doing nor what to do. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up forgetting all the bad shit and feeling happy about whatever the day endures.
Whatever, eff it.
"Wouldn't it be nice if we were older, then we wouldn't have to wait so long" - Beach Boys