im freaking out
ok. im freaking out. i dont know what to do. i know what i want to do. i dont know if i can. im scared of what could happen.
recently, the thought of me becomming an actor has hit me hard. harder than i thought anything ever would. i guess i should have known that i wanted to act. i guess i should have told more people sooner. i guess i shouldnt have kept it locked up inside me like everything else in my life.
im glad i found the key though.
more recently, i've been talking to my cousin kristine. she is awesome. i told her about how i wanted to act. her response: "well why dont you apply to an acting school..."
her response wasnt a laugh. she didnt make fun of me. she thinks i can do it. i didnt think it was a pheasable thing for me actually apply, get accepted, go to, and pay for acting school. i guess just hearing someone say it made me think about a lot.
and today, i looked up the new york film academy. i almost wish i didnt. its amazing when at one point you think you have your life in order, and then next minute, everything comes crashing down.
i want to go. i want to go SO bad. its a lot of money. i havent told my parents, actually the only person ive told is Adam, mostly becuase he IMed me at the exact time i started freaking out. i would definitly have to take time off of school so i can work as hard as i can to make as much money as i can.
im just so scared. i need to talk to someone. i need to talk to my sister, who has been there for me for everything.
this will be one of the biggest decisions of my life.
im just so scared. and i'm not afraid to admit it.
recently, the thought of me becomming an actor has hit me hard. harder than i thought anything ever would. i guess i should have known that i wanted to act. i guess i should have told more people sooner. i guess i shouldnt have kept it locked up inside me like everything else in my life.
im glad i found the key though.
more recently, i've been talking to my cousin kristine. she is awesome. i told her about how i wanted to act. her response: "well why dont you apply to an acting school..."
her response wasnt a laugh. she didnt make fun of me. she thinks i can do it. i didnt think it was a pheasable thing for me actually apply, get accepted, go to, and pay for acting school. i guess just hearing someone say it made me think about a lot.
and today, i looked up the new york film academy. i almost wish i didnt. its amazing when at one point you think you have your life in order, and then next minute, everything comes crashing down.
i want to go. i want to go SO bad. its a lot of money. i havent told my parents, actually the only person ive told is Adam, mostly becuase he IMed me at the exact time i started freaking out. i would definitly have to take time off of school so i can work as hard as i can to make as much money as i can.
im just so scared. i need to talk to someone. i need to talk to my sister, who has been there for me for everything.
this will be one of the biggest decisions of my life.
im just so scared. and i'm not afraid to admit it.