Update

[bigdaddyweavefn]

hey people...i have been feeling kinda sad lately i dont know why....and it makes me worried....i feel on the verge of tears....do i dare say anything to anyone?....no of course not...why would i do something like that....i feel down like the world hates when i'm happy i can't understand it...i'm standing here at the end of my cliff....tears wanting to run but wont leave my eyes....why do i feel the way that i do?....too many things going on..in life that makes me so unhappy? NO OF COURSE NOT...i should be happy everything is really great so why do i feel so much pain? sadness?....i keep everything to myself what really bothers me....why do i do it? i dont know......why do i let myself get to the point that i just want to sit here and cry for no reason at all....to get out my fustrations....where do i begin? how about my "real" father? or how about some of the family issues that go with my "real" dad's side....when will i be able to say its not my fault...that its not my choice...when will i be able to let everything go!!! WHY CAN'T I? i dont understand it....wont it leave its like a wound that never heals...okay i'm done

God Bless You All

~me~