Same old Shit
So yeah...
Yesterday I painted of course, and went to Big and Tall and spent $125 on 3 clothing items, it is a damn fine outfit and I can't wait to show it off on thursday.
Then I went over to Holly's at about 10 o'clock. We got a chance to talk a lot and I really enjoyed the night. It proved something to me, and that made me happy.
Today I relaxed and then of course I painted again. Then had dinner and basically did nothing.
Another Monday night alone, what else is new.
I kind of really hate that, I don't have a small group that I can always hang with. Senior year for me might just suck, my fellow seniors would probably forget about me when hanging out. I would love to go back to europe because when I came back people wanted to hang with me, oh look at that not anymore. I guess being friends with everybody in the end doesn't work out. I feel like I am always in the middle. Last Thursday night people thought I was embarrassed at my section, yeah that was part of the reason but there was other parts, and here they are:
1) People pay attention to me mostly when I'm pissed.
2) I feel like I get singled out and I always have felt that way from someone.
3) My section doesn't need to be harped on by other people.
4) Me cleaning the field is basically no help to anyone.
5) I'm glad my opinion matters... not
So yeah pretty much those were the reasons I wasn't too happy after practice. I don't like posting my problems here but hey it's gets my point across and people know whats going on in my mind that they wouldn't normally know because they don't ask yet alone care.
I guess it more or less a problem with the friends of my own class, no problems with the class of '06, they are the ones that invite me to stuff. Thats what worrys me, what happens when they leave, I get to sit at home all the time.
Call me a bitch and I'll tell you B is for bitch, I really don't care.
This is where I complain because nobody else wants to hear it.
Hope you all enjoyed your last Monday night on Summer Break, I know I did.
And for anyone who wants to preach to me on what I should be doing or saying, go right ahead, can't wait to hear it.
That's all from Around the Horn.
- Josh