It's so cold i could break my genitals off like an icecicle
Ok so today yah not so great. Wake up at 7 and community service. So i drive to otec meet the group then go to the nature center. It was ok thank god i got to drive the utility vehicle. It was like driving go karts, but mainly than that mornign was ok. It got shittier in the afternoon. I got sick from fuckign National Coney Island than Second hand Smoke irritated my allergies and i got dizzy as fuck. Then went home showered. And played video games. I got so pissed cause no one was coming to help cause their was a spawn killer. Then i guess no one really realizes im around anymore. So like this girl named Amy which i have been trying to go for is ignoring me now cause she knows i like her. So i may just drop it, considering it wont work. Everyone says she is stuck up. Plus like idk shes friends with my cousins who live on the same street as her. So idk wtf to think there. My friends at otec think it will eventually work out for me and her. I seriously doubt that. Shes very pretty but like i guess she hates me now basically. LIke every other girl. I have no idea what to do. Then i guss most of my friend who ar ein band are going to some bando party. Fuck em i don't need them. I wish i had something to do right now. Terry better call back. I Now feel like shit cause im all alone at home and i feel alone in life. I hate how everyone uses me in some way or another. Im gonna end up dead one day.