I really hate it when girls lie to me....
So anythign that happened with Cali is now dead basically. I guess her likeing me was nothing more than some quick crush. So is that how life goes, i get a pick me up for like one day but have another 6 months of depression from getting turned down all the time. Earlier Tonite i hung out with her and like she ignored me the entrie time. Like i tried to hold her but she wouldn't let me so was last night nothing ; i guess so. Like on the way in the back of stephans car she wouldn't go near me. THen liek the last 3 minutes before her house she moved over to me and wanted to me to hold her. But Idk cause as soon as we got to her house she opened the door orf the car and just liked started walking toward the door. I wanted to say something to call her back but all that came out was i hae to.. and shes like ya ok. That hurt so much, im so sick and tired of getting the feeling that something good may come into my life and then it drops dead. Like holding a new puppy and having it snatched away from you and given to another kid. I walked to my car confused and left i got onto I-75 and broke down into tears. So is this how my life is gonna be lie after lie, emotional breakdown one after the other. i seriously thought she might've given me the chance i always wanted someone to love and hold. But I guess that will never happen as long as I live.