THE PAIN HURT SO BAD!
KrazyKyria26 [12:28 PM]: Hey what's up
BIGCURT1982 [12:29 PM]: HEY SWEETY
KrazyKyria26 [12:29 PM]: what you been up to haven’t talk to you in awhile
BIGCURT1982 [12:30 PM]: JUST GOING THROUGH SOME DRAMA...OH YEAH IM ENGAGED TO BE MARRIED...BUT ME AN MY FIANCE ARE HAVIN A LIL PROBLEM
KrazyKyria26 [12:30 PM]: what.....oh
BIGCURT1982 [12:30 PM]: YEAH...
KrazyKyria26 [12:31 PM]: that's nice at least you getting what you want... I happy for ya
KrazyKyria26 [12:31 PM]: I'm
BIGCURT1982 [12:32 PM]: OH THANKYOU SWEET HEART...IM REALLY EXCITED...WE HAVENT SET A DATE BUT...IT WILL BE IN 2006...SO...OH YEA HOWS YOU AN UR BOYFRIEND DOING???
KrazyKyria26 [12:34 PM]: that’s good.....hate to say this but I'm a little jealous.... but it all good
BIGCURT1982 [12:34 PM]: WHY U SAY THT U GOT A MAN
KrazyKyria26 [12:34 PM]: Jamel and I are doing good, he is starting to go to the hall and soon he is going to start up a study
KrazyKyria26 [12:35 PM]: yeah i know... but i got feelings for you more then him.... its crazy, and now that your getting married, I'm just going to have to stop having them feelings for you
BIGCURT1982 [12:37 PM]: AWWW...WERE STILL COOL THOUGH...YOU NOE IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK WIT ME ILL BE THERE...IT CRAZY...BUT IT ALL HAPPENED SO FAST...I MEAN I JUST PROPOSED TO HER ON FRIDAY...
KrazyKyria26 [12:37 PM]: lol....oh
BIGCURT1982 [12:37 PM]: YEAH
KrazyKyria26 [12:38 PM]: well I aint hate'n on ya..... I hope you have a good life with her..... and I got ya back till the end boo~!
BIGCURT1982 [12:39 PM]: LOL...I NOE BABE...YOUR A RIDE OR DIE CHICK LOL
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: yeah
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: but guess what
BIGCURT1982 [12:39 PM]: WHT
KrazyKyria26 [12:40 PM]: i cant be liking you, cuz i;m about to get married too...... next year.., but no one knows yet... so you got to keep that one on the D.L.
BIGCURT1982 [12:41 PM]: IT SO WIERD THOUGH...I MEAN HERE I AM SCARED OF COMMITMENT....AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN...I JUST CALLED HER UP AN TOLD HER I NEEDED TO SEE HER AN I ASKED HER THE BIG QUESTION AN SHE SAID YES....IM A LIL SCARED STILL BUT I NOE THIS IS A GOOD THING...
KrazyKyria26 [12:41 PM]: yeah i know what ya talking about
BIGCURT1982 [12:42 PM]: WHAT R U SERIOUS THATS GREAT... IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU...WOW YOU GUYS MOVE FAST...IT TOOK ME 6 YEARS TO GET THE HEART UP 2 PROPOSE TO HER...AN YALL DID IT IN LESS THAN A YEAR LOL
KrazyKyria26 [12:42 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:42 PM]: yeah i know
BIGCURT1982 [12:42 PM]: WELL HOW DID HE PROPOSE
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: yeah
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: i was scared out my but
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: butt
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: my ring is huge
BIGCURT1982 [12:44 PM]: THAT IS LIKE WHOA
KrazyKyria26 [12:44 PM]: lol yeah
BIGCURT1982 [12:44 PM]: SEE I TOLD U ....THT THERE WAS SOMEONE THAT WAS GONNA SNATCH U UP
KrazyKyria26 [12:44 PM]: lol... yeah i know.. i just wish is was you...lol
BIGCURT1982 [12:45 PM]: Y U SAY THAT...
KrazyKyria26 [12:46 PM]: Cuz, just the way u talk to me, and the way you play that big brother thang on my makes me fallin in love with you... but now i cant show how i feel... you got someone eles in ya life, and so do I
KrazyKyria26 [12:47 PM]: ** else...,my bad
BIGCURT1982 [12:48 PM]: AWWW...ILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO LOVE AN SUPPORT YOU...JUST CAUSE WE ARE GOING DOWN DIFFRENT PATHS THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT `WE GOTTA STOP BEING CLOSE...WE WILL BE CLOSE FO SHO...AN YOUR LIKE FAM TO ME..BOO
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: awwwwwwwww... stop nigga your making me cry
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: for real
BIGCURT1982 [12:48 PM]: YEA RIGHT
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:50 PM]: dang i cant believe we both getting married to different people....... what happen
BIGCURT1982 [12:50 PM]: LOL....U TELL ME...
KrazyKyria26 [12:51 PM]: i dont know... i though you was digging me at first then stuff changed around and you flipped on me..... changed all ya feelings for me and everything.... then I lost you.
BIGCURT1982 [12:52 PM]: I HAVE BEEN CLOSE TO MY GIRL FOR DAM NEAR 7 YEARS AN IT TOOK A WHILE BUT I REALIZE HOW SPECIAL SHE WAS TO ME AN A LIGHT WENT OFF IN MY HEAD AND I JUST KNEW I HAD TO MARRY HER...I LOVE HER SO MUCH...THE THING IS...I HAD TO TELL ALOTTA GIRL TO BACK UP OFF ME AN THEY WERE NOT TO HAPPY...BUT ILL ALWAYS BE THERE 4 U...
KrazyKyria26 [12:53 PM]: i know... but not here like i wish you was
BIGCURT1982 [12:53 PM]: YOU DIDNT LOSE ME...IT JUST WOULDNT HAVE WORKED...LOL...BUT YOU SEEM TO HAVE FOUND A GOOD GUY THAT READY TO MARRY U.
KrazyKyria26 [12:54 PM]: what you mean it wouldnt work
BIGCURT1982 [12:54 PM]: WE WERE TO FAR APART...PLUS I HAD A GF...AN WAS STILL IN LOVE WITH MY EX...THATS NOT EVEN A LOVE TRIANGLE THATS A LOVE SQUARE
KrazyKyria26 [12:55 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [12:55 PM]: I COULDNT GIVE YOU THE LOVE I NOE YOU NEED AND THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN FARE TO YOU
KrazyKyria26 [12:57 PM]: yeah i know what ya talking about..... dang why thats all i can say.., I'm about to move to Philly for real.... but i know i cant so, till then I hope you have so much funny and good times with your Wife..... I got love for ya sweetie and i wish that it could work out with me and you
BIGCURT1982 [12:58 PM]: :-[ DNT MAKE ME BLUSH...
KrazyKyria26 [12:58 PM]: lol....
BIGCURT1982 [12:59 PM]: :'( YOUR SWEET...I HOPE HER LOVE FOR ME WILL BE AS STRONG AS YOURS IS...AN I NOE YOUR FIANCE WILL BE A LUCKY MAN TO HAVE YOU...
KrazyKyria26 [12:59 PM]: yeah i know he will be
KrazyKyria26 [12:59 PM]: but his too old for me
BIGCURT1982 [12:59 PM]: HOW OLD IS HE
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: u dont want to know
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: for real
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: you are going to kill me
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:00 PM]: YEA I DO TELL ME
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: i'm scared
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: he's 31.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:00 PM]: wht the fuck
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:01 PM]: omg r u nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: Nuts about you... yeah
BIGCURT1982 [1:01 PM]: well i cant hate as long as he makes you happy...
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: let me stop messing with you... he aint 31
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: he's 22
BIGCURT1982 [1:02 PM]: oh y u playin wit me like that...
KrazyKyria26 [1:02 PM]: cuz i can
BIGCURT1982 [1:02 PM]: i noe its april fools day but that aint funny!!!;-)
KrazyKyria26 [1:02 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:04 PM]: see thats why i wish it could work with me and you, you always making me laugh
KrazyKyria26 [1:05 PM]: ??? why u so quite
BIGCURT1982 [1:05 PM]: it just wierd...
KrazyKyria26 [1:06 PM]: what is?
BIGCURT1982 [1:07 PM]: i mean i am so in love with my fiance that it is scary...but now that im ready to commit...im afriad she isnt interested n e more an i think she may hve feeking for another man...
KrazyKyria26 [1:08 PM]: oh really.....well i would say something to that but i not any of my bizz
KrazyKyria26 [1:08 PM]: so i aint saying nothing
BIGCURT1982 [1:09 PM]: for the first time im afraid to love because im afraid of losing her...the thing is she tells me all the time that she not going n e where...but in my heart im so afraid...ive caused her alot of pain over the years an i think that im gonna get it back in heart ache
BIGCURT1982 [1:09 PM]: no please tell me..
KrazyKyria26 [1:10 PM]: nah..... i just hope that it works out.... I'm going to keep my mouth shut this time
BIGCURT1982 [1:11 PM]: wow i thought we were close an here you cant even be real wit me...thts sad!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: dang
BIGCURT1982 [1:11 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:13 PM]: this is what i'm saying if you think that she creeping with someone besides you, then talk to her about it, if she is with someone one... then ya know where i be at.. fo sho, talk to her, tell her whats on ya mind and how you feeling about this married thing.... you got to talk to her before you marry her, cuz if you dont your going to have this on ya mind for the rest of ya life
BIGCURT1982 [1:17 PM]: i noe an your so right but ive already talked to her about this and im still afraid...so i dont wanna keep bring this up wit her...i guess ill just have to deal with it...cause...i cant hurt this girl again...an i love her to much to leave her...but if i cant trust her i cant marry her
KrazyKyria26 [1:18 PM]: Amen.. to that...... see now your on my level
KrazyKyria26 [1:18 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:18 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:19 PM]: maybe its like this, i know you love her anything, but sometimes those that you love the most dont really love you back, and those that you dont think love u , love you the most!
KrazyKyria26 [1:20 PM]: everything
KrazyKyria26 [1:20 PM]: and everything.... lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:22 PM]: yeah but it hurts so badly...here i finally got my heart right and im ready to commit to the one girl that i want an now...its causing me so much pain in side...i cried all last nite...kyria i love that girl... but i just dont think she loves me as much as she use to...i actually am ready to be faithful but now im afriad she isnt...i just cant fuckin win...when it comes to love...i think jah is punishing me to a life time of heart ache...fo sho
KrazyKyria26 [1:25 PM]: nah.... i dont think its like that...... you just aint opened ya eyes... sometimes you just got to let go of old love and start all over.... you got to make a chace to start a new life with someone you know that will love you and not give you hard times.....like me!:-D
KrazyKyria26 [1:25 PM]: chance
BIGCURT1982 [1:25 PM]: girl please your ingaged ya darn self
KrazyKyria26 [1:26 PM]: lol.... and soooo...... but i aint got a ring around my finger yet, now do i
BIGCURT1982 [1:26 PM]: plus i want to make our realationship work...i guess i just gotta get my mind right
BIGCURT1982 [1:26 PM]: wht u said he gave you a big ring
KrazyKyria26 [1:27 PM]: yeah a ring that isnt on my finger, a ring that i wish i had..... but i know... he said that he wants to marry me, but inside i dont think this is right
KrazyKyria26 [1:28 PM]: I dont know what I'm going to do.. for real
BIGCURT1982 [1:29 PM]: im so sad i just hope every thing will turn out ok cause i cant take any heart ache right now...if i get hurt again i dont think ill get married...to much pain is involved
KrazyKyria26 [1:31 PM]: yeah i know where ya coming from, I may have someone in my life right now, but there's still that other someone that always blows my mind away and i just cant let him go.
BIGCURT1982 [1:33 PM]: why is it that love can turn into pain so easily...i never felt so much love for one person...an i never had a person give me so much pain...i just cnat stop these damn tears...i wannna die...i think im cant take this much longer...sometime its better to sleep in death than to experiance the harships of life...
KrazyKyria26 [1:36 PM]: nahhhh... dont say that... for real, now you got me feeling bad, you just dont know how much i want to be with you Curt, for real, I know if i was with you, you would never have to go though this pain,,,, there would never be pain in ya heart, it would be nothing but love and happiness.
KrazyKyria26 [1:37 PM]: hey i be right back i got to go to the bathroom, dont go nowhere
BIGCURT1982 [1:38 PM]: its not her fault im going through this pain....she supports me and tells me she loves me and tell me that she will never leave...but because of my own jealousies i am ruining our relationship
KrazyKyria26 [1:40 PM]: dang..... I dont know what to say bout that one.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:41 PM]: yeah...i am so depressed and i have no one to blame but myself
KrazyKyria26 [1:41 PM]: nah dont do that to ya self boo, your be aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:42 PM]: i know you love and all but if you cant stop being jelous of her then i dont think you should be with her.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:44 PM]: i dont think i was ever meant to love anyone...im so sad i cant bear it ....u just dont understand...to have real love but to be to afraid to express it...an wether her love is real or not...i may ruin a chance at happiness...because of my own bullshit...i cant live life without her and i to paranoid to live life with her and have a fear of losing her......i wnna go to sleep an just never wake up...id rather that punishment than the one im going through now!!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: dang.... shit that is deep, you must really care about her
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: I can tell
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: I wish there was someone like that in my life
KrazyKyria26 [1:48 PM]: you dont need to kill ya self over something like that... it's not all that funny, believe me i know, there was many of time i over dosed on pills trying to kill myself over some guy
BIGCURT1982 [1:49 PM]: it wierd i dont think she even noes how deep my love is...she thinks that im just bullshiting....an i am so serious...but she doest really talk to me...an i dont think that she wants to know how i really feel...ive tried to mature into a real man for her...but all that did was drive her into another mans arms...and now that im ready to built a future with her...i cant because i dont know if she'll stay with me...i mean she has experianced someone else....and now i feel less than...maybe i should just let go
KrazyKyria26 [1:49 PM]: its not all that cool for real
KrazyKyria26 [1:50 PM]: baby do whatever is in ya heart for real, but you got to promise me that you well not go and go something stupid and kill ya self, cuz i'm not trying to lose a good friend!!
BIGCURT1982 [1:53 PM]: naw...im just being dramatic...its just the pain hurts so badly an i cant hold back my tears an i want the pain to stop...i want the pain to stop so badly...i love her so much...an i dont think she believes me...ill never atone for the hurt ive caused her...an ill just drive her into anothers arms again...ugh an listening to all these sad love songs aren't actually helping me ethier
KrazyKyria26 [1:55 PM]: keep ya head boo, your be aight... for real, if ya need me, i'm here for ya for real, you got my ears eyes and everything that comes with it...lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:57 PM]: you ok?
BIGCURT1982 [1:57 PM]: thankyou for listening to me...i wish i could tell her all this but she'll just think i was weak...an i cant let her see me like this...
KrazyKyria26 [1:58 PM]: nah... if she cant see you like this then she isnt no real Women... for real, and you need a Women in ya life not no little girl
BIGCURT1982 [1:59 PM]: yeah true....i hope she is sure about what she wants because i noe i am...maybe she'll suprise me and help me cope with all my fears...u never noe...
WHT SHOULD I DO...I JUST CANT STAND THE PAIN
BIGCURT1982 [12:29 PM]: HEY SWEETY
KrazyKyria26 [12:29 PM]: what you been up to haven’t talk to you in awhile
BIGCURT1982 [12:30 PM]: JUST GOING THROUGH SOME DRAMA...OH YEAH IM ENGAGED TO BE MARRIED...BUT ME AN MY FIANCE ARE HAVIN A LIL PROBLEM
KrazyKyria26 [12:30 PM]: what.....oh
BIGCURT1982 [12:30 PM]: YEAH...
KrazyKyria26 [12:31 PM]: that's nice at least you getting what you want... I happy for ya
KrazyKyria26 [12:31 PM]: I'm
BIGCURT1982 [12:32 PM]: OH THANKYOU SWEET HEART...IM REALLY EXCITED...WE HAVENT SET A DATE BUT...IT WILL BE IN 2006...SO...OH YEA HOWS YOU AN UR BOYFRIEND DOING???
KrazyKyria26 [12:34 PM]: that’s good.....hate to say this but I'm a little jealous.... but it all good
BIGCURT1982 [12:34 PM]: WHY U SAY THT U GOT A MAN
KrazyKyria26 [12:34 PM]: Jamel and I are doing good, he is starting to go to the hall and soon he is going to start up a study
KrazyKyria26 [12:35 PM]: yeah i know... but i got feelings for you more then him.... its crazy, and now that your getting married, I'm just going to have to stop having them feelings for you
BIGCURT1982 [12:37 PM]: AWWW...WERE STILL COOL THOUGH...YOU NOE IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK WIT ME ILL BE THERE...IT CRAZY...BUT IT ALL HAPPENED SO FAST...I MEAN I JUST PROPOSED TO HER ON FRIDAY...
KrazyKyria26 [12:37 PM]: lol....oh
BIGCURT1982 [12:37 PM]: YEAH
KrazyKyria26 [12:38 PM]: well I aint hate'n on ya..... I hope you have a good life with her..... and I got ya back till the end boo~!
BIGCURT1982 [12:39 PM]: LOL...I NOE BABE...YOUR A RIDE OR DIE CHICK LOL
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: yeah
KrazyKyria26 [12:39 PM]: but guess what
BIGCURT1982 [12:39 PM]: WHT
KrazyKyria26 [12:40 PM]: i cant be liking you, cuz i;m about to get married too...... next year.., but no one knows yet... so you got to keep that one on the D.L.
BIGCURT1982 [12:41 PM]: IT SO WIERD THOUGH...I MEAN HERE I AM SCARED OF COMMITMENT....AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN...I JUST CALLED HER UP AN TOLD HER I NEEDED TO SEE HER AN I ASKED HER THE BIG QUESTION AN SHE SAID YES....IM A LIL SCARED STILL BUT I NOE THIS IS A GOOD THING...
KrazyKyria26 [12:41 PM]: yeah i know what ya talking about
BIGCURT1982 [12:42 PM]: WHAT R U SERIOUS THATS GREAT... IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU...WOW YOU GUYS MOVE FAST...IT TOOK ME 6 YEARS TO GET THE HEART UP 2 PROPOSE TO HER...AN YALL DID IT IN LESS THAN A YEAR LOL
KrazyKyria26 [12:42 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:42 PM]: yeah i know
BIGCURT1982 [12:42 PM]: WELL HOW DID HE PROPOSE
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: yeah
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: i was scared out my but
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: butt
KrazyKyria26 [12:43 PM]: my ring is huge
BIGCURT1982 [12:44 PM]: THAT IS LIKE WHOA
KrazyKyria26 [12:44 PM]: lol yeah
BIGCURT1982 [12:44 PM]: SEE I TOLD U ....THT THERE WAS SOMEONE THAT WAS GONNA SNATCH U UP
KrazyKyria26 [12:44 PM]: lol... yeah i know.. i just wish is was you...lol
BIGCURT1982 [12:45 PM]: Y U SAY THAT...
KrazyKyria26 [12:46 PM]: Cuz, just the way u talk to me, and the way you play that big brother thang on my makes me fallin in love with you... but now i cant show how i feel... you got someone eles in ya life, and so do I
KrazyKyria26 [12:47 PM]: ** else...,my bad
BIGCURT1982 [12:48 PM]: AWWW...ILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO LOVE AN SUPPORT YOU...JUST CAUSE WE ARE GOING DOWN DIFFRENT PATHS THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT `WE GOTTA STOP BEING CLOSE...WE WILL BE CLOSE FO SHO...AN YOUR LIKE FAM TO ME..BOO
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: awwwwwwwww... stop nigga your making me cry
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: for real
BIGCURT1982 [12:48 PM]: YEA RIGHT
KrazyKyria26 [12:48 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [12:50 PM]: dang i cant believe we both getting married to different people....... what happen
BIGCURT1982 [12:50 PM]: LOL....U TELL ME...
KrazyKyria26 [12:51 PM]: i dont know... i though you was digging me at first then stuff changed around and you flipped on me..... changed all ya feelings for me and everything.... then I lost you.
BIGCURT1982 [12:52 PM]: I HAVE BEEN CLOSE TO MY GIRL FOR DAM NEAR 7 YEARS AN IT TOOK A WHILE BUT I REALIZE HOW SPECIAL SHE WAS TO ME AN A LIGHT WENT OFF IN MY HEAD AND I JUST KNEW I HAD TO MARRY HER...I LOVE HER SO MUCH...THE THING IS...I HAD TO TELL ALOTTA GIRL TO BACK UP OFF ME AN THEY WERE NOT TO HAPPY...BUT ILL ALWAYS BE THERE 4 U...
KrazyKyria26 [12:53 PM]: i know... but not here like i wish you was
BIGCURT1982 [12:53 PM]: YOU DIDNT LOSE ME...IT JUST WOULDNT HAVE WORKED...LOL...BUT YOU SEEM TO HAVE FOUND A GOOD GUY THAT READY TO MARRY U.
KrazyKyria26 [12:54 PM]: what you mean it wouldnt work
BIGCURT1982 [12:54 PM]: WE WERE TO FAR APART...PLUS I HAD A GF...AN WAS STILL IN LOVE WITH MY EX...THATS NOT EVEN A LOVE TRIANGLE THATS A LOVE SQUARE
KrazyKyria26 [12:55 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [12:55 PM]: I COULDNT GIVE YOU THE LOVE I NOE YOU NEED AND THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN FARE TO YOU
KrazyKyria26 [12:57 PM]: yeah i know what ya talking about..... dang why thats all i can say.., I'm about to move to Philly for real.... but i know i cant so, till then I hope you have so much funny and good times with your Wife..... I got love for ya sweetie and i wish that it could work out with me and you
BIGCURT1982 [12:58 PM]: :-[ DNT MAKE ME BLUSH...
KrazyKyria26 [12:58 PM]: lol....
BIGCURT1982 [12:59 PM]: :'( YOUR SWEET...I HOPE HER LOVE FOR ME WILL BE AS STRONG AS YOURS IS...AN I NOE YOUR FIANCE WILL BE A LUCKY MAN TO HAVE YOU...
KrazyKyria26 [12:59 PM]: yeah i know he will be
KrazyKyria26 [12:59 PM]: but his too old for me
BIGCURT1982 [12:59 PM]: HOW OLD IS HE
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: u dont want to know
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: for real
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: you are going to kill me
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:00 PM]: YEA I DO TELL ME
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: i'm scared
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: he's 31.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:00 PM]: wht the fuck
KrazyKyria26 [1:00 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:01 PM]: omg r u nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: Nuts about you... yeah
BIGCURT1982 [1:01 PM]: well i cant hate as long as he makes you happy...
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: let me stop messing with you... he aint 31
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:01 PM]: he's 22
BIGCURT1982 [1:02 PM]: oh y u playin wit me like that...
KrazyKyria26 [1:02 PM]: cuz i can
BIGCURT1982 [1:02 PM]: i noe its april fools day but that aint funny!!!;-)
KrazyKyria26 [1:02 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:04 PM]: see thats why i wish it could work with me and you, you always making me laugh
KrazyKyria26 [1:05 PM]: ??? why u so quite
BIGCURT1982 [1:05 PM]: it just wierd...
KrazyKyria26 [1:06 PM]: what is?
BIGCURT1982 [1:07 PM]: i mean i am so in love with my fiance that it is scary...but now that im ready to commit...im afriad she isnt interested n e more an i think she may hve feeking for another man...
KrazyKyria26 [1:08 PM]: oh really.....well i would say something to that but i not any of my bizz
KrazyKyria26 [1:08 PM]: so i aint saying nothing
BIGCURT1982 [1:09 PM]: for the first time im afraid to love because im afraid of losing her...the thing is she tells me all the time that she not going n e where...but in my heart im so afraid...ive caused her alot of pain over the years an i think that im gonna get it back in heart ache
BIGCURT1982 [1:09 PM]: no please tell me..
KrazyKyria26 [1:10 PM]: nah..... i just hope that it works out.... I'm going to keep my mouth shut this time
BIGCURT1982 [1:11 PM]: wow i thought we were close an here you cant even be real wit me...thts sad!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:11 PM]: dang
BIGCURT1982 [1:11 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:13 PM]: this is what i'm saying if you think that she creeping with someone besides you, then talk to her about it, if she is with someone one... then ya know where i be at.. fo sho, talk to her, tell her whats on ya mind and how you feeling about this married thing.... you got to talk to her before you marry her, cuz if you dont your going to have this on ya mind for the rest of ya life
BIGCURT1982 [1:17 PM]: i noe an your so right but ive already talked to her about this and im still afraid...so i dont wanna keep bring this up wit her...i guess ill just have to deal with it...cause...i cant hurt this girl again...an i love her to much to leave her...but if i cant trust her i cant marry her
KrazyKyria26 [1:18 PM]: Amen.. to that...... see now your on my level
KrazyKyria26 [1:18 PM]: lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:18 PM]: lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:19 PM]: maybe its like this, i know you love her anything, but sometimes those that you love the most dont really love you back, and those that you dont think love u , love you the most!
KrazyKyria26 [1:20 PM]: everything
KrazyKyria26 [1:20 PM]: and everything.... lol
BIGCURT1982 [1:22 PM]: yeah but it hurts so badly...here i finally got my heart right and im ready to commit to the one girl that i want an now...its causing me so much pain in side...i cried all last nite...kyria i love that girl... but i just dont think she loves me as much as she use to...i actually am ready to be faithful but now im afriad she isnt...i just cant fuckin win...when it comes to love...i think jah is punishing me to a life time of heart ache...fo sho
KrazyKyria26 [1:25 PM]: nah.... i dont think its like that...... you just aint opened ya eyes... sometimes you just got to let go of old love and start all over.... you got to make a chace to start a new life with someone you know that will love you and not give you hard times.....like me!:-D
KrazyKyria26 [1:25 PM]: chance
BIGCURT1982 [1:25 PM]: girl please your ingaged ya darn self
KrazyKyria26 [1:26 PM]: lol.... and soooo...... but i aint got a ring around my finger yet, now do i
BIGCURT1982 [1:26 PM]: plus i want to make our realationship work...i guess i just gotta get my mind right
BIGCURT1982 [1:26 PM]: wht u said he gave you a big ring
KrazyKyria26 [1:27 PM]: yeah a ring that isnt on my finger, a ring that i wish i had..... but i know... he said that he wants to marry me, but inside i dont think this is right
KrazyKyria26 [1:28 PM]: I dont know what I'm going to do.. for real
BIGCURT1982 [1:29 PM]: im so sad i just hope every thing will turn out ok cause i cant take any heart ache right now...if i get hurt again i dont think ill get married...to much pain is involved
KrazyKyria26 [1:31 PM]: yeah i know where ya coming from, I may have someone in my life right now, but there's still that other someone that always blows my mind away and i just cant let him go.
BIGCURT1982 [1:33 PM]: why is it that love can turn into pain so easily...i never felt so much love for one person...an i never had a person give me so much pain...i just cnat stop these damn tears...i wannna die...i think im cant take this much longer...sometime its better to sleep in death than to experiance the harships of life...
KrazyKyria26 [1:36 PM]: nahhhh... dont say that... for real, now you got me feeling bad, you just dont know how much i want to be with you Curt, for real, I know if i was with you, you would never have to go though this pain,,,, there would never be pain in ya heart, it would be nothing but love and happiness.
KrazyKyria26 [1:37 PM]: hey i be right back i got to go to the bathroom, dont go nowhere
BIGCURT1982 [1:38 PM]: its not her fault im going through this pain....she supports me and tells me she loves me and tell me that she will never leave...but because of my own jealousies i am ruining our relationship
KrazyKyria26 [1:40 PM]: dang..... I dont know what to say bout that one.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:41 PM]: yeah...i am so depressed and i have no one to blame but myself
KrazyKyria26 [1:41 PM]: nah dont do that to ya self boo, your be aight
KrazyKyria26 [1:42 PM]: i know you love and all but if you cant stop being jelous of her then i dont think you should be with her.....
BIGCURT1982 [1:44 PM]: i dont think i was ever meant to love anyone...im so sad i cant bear it ....u just dont understand...to have real love but to be to afraid to express it...an wether her love is real or not...i may ruin a chance at happiness...because of my own bullshit...i cant live life without her and i to paranoid to live life with her and have a fear of losing her......i wnna go to sleep an just never wake up...id rather that punishment than the one im going through now!!!!
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: dang.... shit that is deep, you must really care about her
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: I can tell
KrazyKyria26 [1:45 PM]: I wish there was someone like that in my life
KrazyKyria26 [1:48 PM]: you dont need to kill ya self over something like that... it's not all that funny, believe me i know, there was many of time i over dosed on pills trying to kill myself over some guy
BIGCURT1982 [1:49 PM]: it wierd i dont think she even noes how deep my love is...she thinks that im just bullshiting....an i am so serious...but she doest really talk to me...an i dont think that she wants to know how i really feel...ive tried to mature into a real man for her...but all that did was drive her into another mans arms...and now that im ready to built a future with her...i cant because i dont know if she'll stay with me...i mean she has experianced someone else....and now i feel less than...maybe i should just let go
KrazyKyria26 [1:49 PM]: its not all that cool for real
KrazyKyria26 [1:50 PM]: baby do whatever is in ya heart for real, but you got to promise me that you well not go and go something stupid and kill ya self, cuz i'm not trying to lose a good friend!!
BIGCURT1982 [1:53 PM]: naw...im just being dramatic...its just the pain hurts so badly an i cant hold back my tears an i want the pain to stop...i want the pain to stop so badly...i love her so much...an i dont think she believes me...ill never atone for the hurt ive caused her...an ill just drive her into anothers arms again...ugh an listening to all these sad love songs aren't actually helping me ethier
KrazyKyria26 [1:55 PM]: keep ya head boo, your be aight... for real, if ya need me, i'm here for ya for real, you got my ears eyes and everything that comes with it...lol
KrazyKyria26 [1:57 PM]: you ok?
BIGCURT1982 [1:57 PM]: thankyou for listening to me...i wish i could tell her all this but she'll just think i was weak...an i cant let her see me like this...
KrazyKyria26 [1:58 PM]: nah... if she cant see you like this then she isnt no real Women... for real, and you need a Women in ya life not no little girl
BIGCURT1982 [1:59 PM]: yeah true....i hope she is sure about what she wants because i noe i am...maybe she'll suprise me and help me cope with all my fears...u never noe...
WHT SHOULD I DO...I JUST CANT STAND THE PAIN