IM FINE ALONE!!

[bigcountryboy]

ive been stressing out lately cause alots going on in my life now, everything is blowing up in my face, getting stabbed in the back by some of my buddies, and im about to go to war,,,well ive been assumeing to much and flipping out on everyone,im sorry soo much!! i realized i have changed too much, im no longer who i use to be,i lose my temper to easy now and i tend to get real parinoid and nervous,, i think its cause of my job and the way they have trained me,and the things ill have to deal with in just 2 weeks, ive realized that i cant trust anyone, i have a hard time believeing people, and its all my fault its a personal thing,and because of that i realize illnever be able to handle haveing a gf, i get mad to easy,and im fine with being alone,, im too busy with my job in the army and its too dangerous and i wouldnt want anyone to worry about me anyways, i just wanna worry about shooting them before they shoot me,, i mean its good for when im in Iraq and army stuff ,,,but i tend to hurt alot of people i care about cuz of shit i do!! ive changed soo much my own mom dosnt even know who i am and how i will act,,,i dunno whats wrong with me,i just got to find myself i guess,,,, but i cant wait to get to iraq and see what its like to kill,,,,, get rid of some anger,,,

AIR ASSUALT!!!

im sorry babe,, ive changed!!: ( i understand if u hate me now and never wanna talk to me!! u know i didnt mean it