i love
most things.
mostly mattie DEE-SSSTTRUUUCCTTTIOONNNSS pictures.
they make me happy when ever he posts them
and not happy like
aww kitttennss!! happy
happy like
wow. at least SOME ONES haveing fun while im baby sitting and not going to parties.
i mean really.
but idk other than that im in a really good mood i hung out with victoria and idk i love her a lot. and out of most any body i think she knows best what its like to live with people like i do haha. idk its hard to like explain how i feel without sounds like a) a raging lesbian or b) an obsessive stalker so im just going to leave it at that.
im going to the mall tomorro and im hoping ill find a plain
black
dress for victorias becauseee idk thats just what i want to wear
and im going into abercrombie to make sure that they still want me in september and that i should find somewhere else to work.
also. im finding a cognative therapist. who will be able to tell me WHY i eat so much shit i dont want to eat. and why i do things that i know make me sick and things like that. and how to fix them so i hope hope hope my serch goes well.
i had a doctor appointment in the like mid day today and it went bettter than i thought i saw my moms doctor which was nice because im not a baby any more i dont want to see a kid doctor.
i need to get re evaluated brain wise for medication which sucks a BIG HAIRY BULL DICK.
to be blunt.
oh and uhm speaking of blunts i need some new parties to go to. im not so into the people ive been going t o parties with and since mahwah boys ARENT talking to me which is totally okay i have nothing to do. im sick of drinking cheap beers in some kids back yard. but ill deal with it for now i just want to see some new faces and new just things.
uhm i love patent pending and marc FROM patent pending and big shows
oh and this
"I've got a problem with everyone I know
I've got a problem I want everyone to know
I got home late last night from the punk rock show
I say it sucked because I'm emo"
haha idk why i just love that line so much.
oh and also i realized that sometimes
i really really dont like people sometimes
but other time i really do
i like attention i guess and until people give it to me im not going to like them
i still want traci to come home.
uh oh uh oh
cliffhanger.
I REALLY LIKE THIS BOY. but really. no chance.
guess who!