LIfe Sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry it has been so long....
I hate this............. "This" being that I have kids out east which I can not see
or spend time with. I am forced every year to watch them grow from a far. I get to see them change and morph into these awesome people that I love so desperately but can not even fucking touch...I have already had to do this with my oldest daughter..and now It seems I will do it with my daughter out here.I have a stupid job that causes me to live away from home five out of seven days. so I get to see my awesome loving wife and daughter one and a half day's a week....I miss them so much right now I feel like some one is slowly ripping out my heart!!! I have not felt like this since I was a love sick sixteen year old. I can always change it..I do know that, but at what cost. it was only a few years ago that I was hurt and out of work barely making it and hell we all know how great that is for any relationship!!!!any way i'm sick of thinking sick of hurting i'm going to bed....sinking back into the fog.... night all.
I hate this............. "This" being that I have kids out east which I can not see
or spend time with. I am forced every year to watch them grow from a far. I get to see them change and morph into these awesome people that I love so desperately but can not even fucking touch...I have already had to do this with my oldest daughter..and now It seems I will do it with my daughter out here.I have a stupid job that causes me to live away from home five out of seven days. so I get to see my awesome loving wife and daughter one and a half day's a week....I miss them so much right now I feel like some one is slowly ripping out my heart!!! I have not felt like this since I was a love sick sixteen year old. I can always change it..I do know that, but at what cost. it was only a few years ago that I was hurt and out of work barely making it and hell we all know how great that is for any relationship!!!!any way i'm sick of thinking sick of hurting i'm going to bed....sinking back into the fog.... night all.