Dear Anthony,
you are not sorry.
and yes, you are very low.
i want to see you, very badly.
and it hurts so much im finaly numb,
told no one you say? no, you did the right thing.
you didnt hide it all away.
youve driven me insane
you are lucky my bike was stolen on the same day i heard this news
you really are.
so this is why your dumped me.
you love another girl?
after telling me it was all my fault.
that i dealt with fine.
but i would have rathered you cheat on me and then tell me later.
at least you could say it to my face.
you dumped me for another girl.
and lied to me, not once, not twice, but every time about it.
how long did you two have a crush on eachother?
and why was your loyalties not kept?
i liked sam, a small amouont, but i liked him.
but i said i wasnt going to ruin 14 months of a relationship i cherished to chance myself with someone else.
my loyalties were kept to you.
i gave you 110% of my life.
you betrayed me.
all my trust, all my limits, all my time.
you have no idea how i felt.
i almost fainted. pain is not even the beginning.
i thought you gave me closure.
you have given me nothing but lies to keep me away.
is this what 16 months means to you? you'll find someone else and then date her a week after dumping me?
do you have any idea how much sam wants to wound you?
and kims mom? and dad?
stay in your house. you wont want to be traveling...
you are weak? no, you are nothing. youve mangae to beak every shred of self confidence i've ever built up in 17 years.
i literally have no real emotion... all my smiles and tears have no meaning anymore.
i hope shes worth it, that kristen girl.
why she thinks shes worth anything to you is beyond me.
shes better than that. to know that you dumped me for her
she shouldnt feel special.
she should feel like trash, stealing a boyfriend like that.
all those reasons you listed were too desperate... i knew they were... but i figured you'd say something else...
i guessed it. i figured it out, i asked "its that he likes someone else, isnt it?"
this entire time i was dealing with "it was your fault, you didnt listen to me" deal in your second letter.
Be warned, life goes in circles. it will not end well for you, be it fate, or even my own friends...
i thought i was dating a "nice boy"
who everyone was amazed of. everyone thought this was the best relationship.
if i knew there were lies on top of lies.
everything i've done and made for you.
every date i paid for
every gift i made with my time and energy to make you
has gone for not.
you think you were perfect? no, i was patient.
heres my deal with you:
-You dont plan, you never do, never will, never want to admit to the fact that even if promises break, the person wont kill you for it.
-you arent romantic, i had to ask you to compliment me, i had to ask to say im pretty.
-if you had money, you didnt save any to pay me back. it was an emergency, yes. it was 80 dollars, yes, it was something i felt necissary, yes.
-I pulled you away from friends because i KNEW,KNEW you would like someone else who gave you jsut as much attention every day at your school. if i couldnt give you that attention, you would go to her. ironic, isnt it? and stupid.
-you said being with me felt like a chore. say so. if you bugged me to the point where i could dump you, do you think anything would have gone unsaid? i paid and planned every date. i pulled in all the effort, even as a modern girlfriend, dont you see that as much for me to do? Patience, i told myself, he loves me, we can make things work...
-You stopped loving me when you stopped seeing me. the rain. Seeing you depended on the weather. you think i didnt want to let you hang with friends afterschool? you hung out with them every weekend, but you couldnt hang out with me for an hour afterschool every weekday? even zach wants to hurt you for this. you stopped getting attention from me. you stopped loving me.
-lastly, you told me a long time ago, that if i stopped loving you, you would stop loving me. i told you that ws dangerous. if dont want love to be a switch you could jsut turn on and off. its amazing how you did that anyways.
you dont love me anymore.
you claim you have feelings, but perhaps they are of regret more than anything now, any comfort your ever found in me is meaningless.
i thought you were going through a rough time
no, your spending time with someone you "love"
who you want to "be with"
One week... not even sean did that, and you know how everyone doesnt like him...
one week? no mourning, your trying to force yourself to get over me so you can love her.
Last thought:
fuck you.
i though exs could be friends. Friends dont backstab, and even enemies hardly do. even steph comforted me, STEPH, the one with the rocky history? remember her? the one who help me all day yesterday and held my hand? Run. Hide. Stay in your little cacoon of love and comfort with this girl. i hope your happy. you once told me an apology in a letter to you would be thrown away. it has mening you cant put forth any other way than face to face. lies, and more lies. you have done every single thing i thought you never would. if you told me there was another girl from the begining, i could accept that. i really could have.
i hope you guys have fun at prom, i hope you are finally happy now. i wanted to kill myself knowing what i put you through, but with this new found glory, everyone just wants to hurt you. Low life cant even begin to describe you. you could have done anything, but if you told me to my face, i would know you trusted me to deal with it well enough because we cared for eachother.
Thank you for teaching me that even 16 months of a "caring" relationship cant even be real.
Lynn Chay.
and yes, you are very low.
i want to see you, very badly.
and it hurts so much im finaly numb,
told no one you say? no, you did the right thing.
you didnt hide it all away.
youve driven me insane
you are lucky my bike was stolen on the same day i heard this news
you really are.
so this is why your dumped me.
you love another girl?
after telling me it was all my fault.
that i dealt with fine.
but i would have rathered you cheat on me and then tell me later.
at least you could say it to my face.
you dumped me for another girl.
and lied to me, not once, not twice, but every time about it.
how long did you two have a crush on eachother?
and why was your loyalties not kept?
i liked sam, a small amouont, but i liked him.
but i said i wasnt going to ruin 14 months of a relationship i cherished to chance myself with someone else.
my loyalties were kept to you.
i gave you 110% of my life.
you betrayed me.
all my trust, all my limits, all my time.
you have no idea how i felt.
i almost fainted. pain is not even the beginning.
i thought you gave me closure.
you have given me nothing but lies to keep me away.
is this what 16 months means to you? you'll find someone else and then date her a week after dumping me?
do you have any idea how much sam wants to wound you?
and kims mom? and dad?
stay in your house. you wont want to be traveling...
you are weak? no, you are nothing. youve mangae to beak every shred of self confidence i've ever built up in 17 years.
i literally have no real emotion... all my smiles and tears have no meaning anymore.
i hope shes worth it, that kristen girl.
why she thinks shes worth anything to you is beyond me.
shes better than that. to know that you dumped me for her
she shouldnt feel special.
she should feel like trash, stealing a boyfriend like that.
all those reasons you listed were too desperate... i knew they were... but i figured you'd say something else...
i guessed it. i figured it out, i asked "its that he likes someone else, isnt it?"
this entire time i was dealing with "it was your fault, you didnt listen to me" deal in your second letter.
Be warned, life goes in circles. it will not end well for you, be it fate, or even my own friends...
i thought i was dating a "nice boy"
who everyone was amazed of. everyone thought this was the best relationship.
if i knew there were lies on top of lies.
everything i've done and made for you.
every date i paid for
every gift i made with my time and energy to make you
has gone for not.
you think you were perfect? no, i was patient.
heres my deal with you:
-You dont plan, you never do, never will, never want to admit to the fact that even if promises break, the person wont kill you for it.
-you arent romantic, i had to ask you to compliment me, i had to ask to say im pretty.
-if you had money, you didnt save any to pay me back. it was an emergency, yes. it was 80 dollars, yes, it was something i felt necissary, yes.
-I pulled you away from friends because i KNEW,KNEW you would like someone else who gave you jsut as much attention every day at your school. if i couldnt give you that attention, you would go to her. ironic, isnt it? and stupid.
-you said being with me felt like a chore. say so. if you bugged me to the point where i could dump you, do you think anything would have gone unsaid? i paid and planned every date. i pulled in all the effort, even as a modern girlfriend, dont you see that as much for me to do? Patience, i told myself, he loves me, we can make things work...
-You stopped loving me when you stopped seeing me. the rain. Seeing you depended on the weather. you think i didnt want to let you hang with friends afterschool? you hung out with them every weekend, but you couldnt hang out with me for an hour afterschool every weekday? even zach wants to hurt you for this. you stopped getting attention from me. you stopped loving me.
-lastly, you told me a long time ago, that if i stopped loving you, you would stop loving me. i told you that ws dangerous. if dont want love to be a switch you could jsut turn on and off. its amazing how you did that anyways.
you dont love me anymore.
you claim you have feelings, but perhaps they are of regret more than anything now, any comfort your ever found in me is meaningless.
i thought you were going through a rough time
no, your spending time with someone you "love"
who you want to "be with"
One week... not even sean did that, and you know how everyone doesnt like him...
one week? no mourning, your trying to force yourself to get over me so you can love her.
Last thought:
fuck you.
i though exs could be friends. Friends dont backstab, and even enemies hardly do. even steph comforted me, STEPH, the one with the rocky history? remember her? the one who help me all day yesterday and held my hand? Run. Hide. Stay in your little cacoon of love and comfort with this girl. i hope your happy. you once told me an apology in a letter to you would be thrown away. it has mening you cant put forth any other way than face to face. lies, and more lies. you have done every single thing i thought you never would. if you told me there was another girl from the begining, i could accept that. i really could have.
i hope you guys have fun at prom, i hope you are finally happy now. i wanted to kill myself knowing what i put you through, but with this new found glory, everyone just wants to hurt you. Low life cant even begin to describe you. you could have done anything, but if you told me to my face, i would know you trusted me to deal with it well enough because we cared for eachother.
Thank you for teaching me that even 16 months of a "caring" relationship cant even be real.
Lynn Chay.