I'm still in pajamas
It's 5:30 on Sunday and I'm still in pajamas. Loki and Tellulah are laying next to me and Susan is asleep which means I am left to my own devices.
Whenever this happens I always want something to distract me from the thoughts in my head but nothing ever does. Sure movies help for a bit but then they end and the harsh crash to reality seems all to much to handle. What I hate most is that my thoughts always go back to boys. I know I know; cry moar, wha wha.
I just wish I wasn't so stupidly dependent on the approval of the opposite sex. Why can't I just forget about dating for now and be happy with everything else?
The one boy I really enjoyed spending time with hasn't contacted me in almost two weeks now. I keep hoping it is just because he has been extremely busy. As do I hope is the reason for him being unable to attend the events that I have invited him to recently. I guess I just can't seem to face reality that someone has lost interest in me.
I have also been spending a lot of time with another guy. We have decided to just be friends and I do really enjoy his company but I feel that I am starting to develop feelings that are more that just "friendly" ones. Why do I have to do this? Why can't I just have a new friend and be happy? Why must I make myself miserable by falling for someone that I know won't reciprocate my feelings? And why must I keep thinking about boys that haven't talked to me in two weeks!
I know these aren't real problems which just makes me even more upset with myself.
Whenever this happens I always want something to distract me from the thoughts in my head but nothing ever does. Sure movies help for a bit but then they end and the harsh crash to reality seems all to much to handle. What I hate most is that my thoughts always go back to boys. I know I know; cry moar, wha wha.
I just wish I wasn't so stupidly dependent on the approval of the opposite sex. Why can't I just forget about dating for now and be happy with everything else?
The one boy I really enjoyed spending time with hasn't contacted me in almost two weeks now. I keep hoping it is just because he has been extremely busy. As do I hope is the reason for him being unable to attend the events that I have invited him to recently. I guess I just can't seem to face reality that someone has lost interest in me.
I have also been spending a lot of time with another guy. We have decided to just be friends and I do really enjoy his company but I feel that I am starting to develop feelings that are more that just "friendly" ones. Why do I have to do this? Why can't I just have a new friend and be happy? Why must I make myself miserable by falling for someone that I know won't reciprocate my feelings? And why must I keep thinking about boys that haven't talked to me in two weeks!
I know these aren't real problems which just makes me even more upset with myself.