new musing, old friend
well... lets see. im now a college graduate of 3 months, i cant find a job in my major, im working at the sheriff's office, im sober as a priest, im living with my mother... im hating life. I always knew it would be this way after i was down blowing my 50k wad at college, but i just didnt want to accept it... i came to the realization the other day that instead of going to college to find a job, i went to college to avoid finding a job outta highschool.. funny how that turned out really. still dating the same girl, but dont really want to get married or see us close to that, dont want kids, dont wanan work :p just wanna veg out and *gasp* play video games. cant i get paid to do that? lol. right. nope, instead insurance kicks me off my mothers and tells me to get a job, irs starts demanding money to support the old folks, the federal government wants their money and citibank isnt far behind. mom is ecstatic to have me home and im wanting nothing mroe than to be on my own. so many problems, so few solutions. and really i dont guess bitching here will do any good. but i shall continue b/c i doubt very seriously anyone will even read this b/c i dont ever update so why would they check it. anyways, ive also noticed that all of my friends in my home town have either gotten married or had kids or both. whats the big damn rush? is that all thats left after college? marriage. kids. settlign down. no more partying, no more fun. going to bed at 10pm so you can get up for a dumb job at 6am? sheesh. if this is all life is now, i am begining to understand suicide... as august dawns and school time creeps closer and closer i find myself mourning the fact that i shant be returning to my alma mater. i had a great run at the ua and im gonna miss it and my friends dearly. no more sitting in my room, fucked up and having a great time, conversations about pointless things in the drawing room, hours and hours and hours of smash bros, drunken ramblings down the hallway, bowling on the 3rd floor, ky slides, mallet parties... all gone. im just an old fart now. and boy do i sound like one. lol. how pathetic. thanks for listening.
wesley
wesley