the devices we use to distract ourselves from personal goals.

[bigbrotherd]

ever get the feeling you've been wasting your time, by just working and not making any money. Well in the previous entry you can see its pretty obvious how I feel about things. But, last night I met up with an old friend of mine I haven't seen in a few months. We had a real haert to heart, sorta. He was kinda drunk and was blabbering about how much he thought about me and how much he wanted to start hanging out again. Hes a ceramic grad student at SU and made me think about what was going on in my head. He told me I could come to studio and throw some bowls for this benefit he been putting on.

ii'm pissed. Talking to a screen hoping somone will read this and understand what i'm going through. from one comp screen to another. fuck this. Why do people do this? for attention? I dont' know. I wanna express myself, but I wanna do this in person. this whole internet thing seems a but impersonal.

no need to good byes.