Telegrams From Neil Diamond all around...
Dear Ben,
I am sick of sitting around and hearing ignorant ass arrogant fuckers spewing off about shit they not only have no fucking clue about but have no desire to have a fucking clue about.
We're back to negative resentful antagonistic cold pissed off at women Space Boy. I don't honestly think they actually listen to what it is they are saying ever?
I'm in a sooper bad mood. I'm going to do my best to not take it out on anyone but this LJ. I have my headphones on and am enjoying the wonderful world that is Russian Dance Musique...
I made a new friend or something? It's strange... really strange. She kinda reminds me of Sierra, but a lot less psycho... she is 19. I do not think she has very many close friends. She invited me to stay the night at her place last night... I did not tell her this, but she had some really bad dreams... she woke me up a few times (we were in different beds... let that be your clarification that nothing non-platonic happened) tossing and turning and kinda screaming but dreaming still. It made me sad. Because that's how I feel a lot. I almost always have bad dreams.
Completely Unrelated:
One of my least favourite things in this universe involves someone you've made it known to that you have a crush on or may-be in love with or what have you feeling it neccecary in some sick-female-sadism to tell you about all of their crushes and objects of lust, and escapades... that are not with you. Then you say things such as "Hey could you not tell me those things ever again?" or "It really bothers me when I get to hear that shit." and they do it any way.
"Why don't you go back to your home on whore island?"
Yesterday:
... on a whim with said new friend I ventured out to sit in on some all chick band's practice and it was kind of uncomfortable and kind of cool at the same time... their band's name is "Pretty In Stereo"
After this involved dinner then chilling at new friend's apartment.
Something I've Noticed:
And this would be really fucking sexist, well I still find it sexist, if sexism was NOT a one way street. It is ok, understood, accepted, tolerated, et al... when a female of the species is moody... having mood swings, over emotional, over-reacts... et al. When a male of the species though (such as MYSELF) experiences the same things, which in my case being male are called "problems" it is totally unacceptable and not understood and seen as something to steer away from something unacceptable and that maybe I should consider medication for...
All You Psycho Hormonal Bitches Out There:
GET ON SOME FUCKING MEDS... A MOOD STABILIZER OR TWO MAYBE AN ANTI DEPRESSANT OR THREE AND I'LL CONSIDER THE MED THING.
Oh... and you are just as psycho as I am if not more so...
"It's ok cry-baby... tears dry."
No matter what it is I am experiencing other than a quiet happy contentment some people feel the need to complain and make negative commentary about it as if my mood-scope is somehow intolerable, as if their own is any easier to handle.
If I feel sad, I am going to cry, and be sad.
If I feel anger, I am going to get it out healthily, and be angry.
If I feel excited, I am going to be excited, and be excited.
When I feel a quiet happy contentment come on... don't complain that I'm not talking enough or I might just be driven back to one of those other undesirable other emotions.
Oh and BTW:
You are fucking impossible to please so I have stopped trying.
Tonight:
Going to see VNV Nation with ap0rnnstar though i have 2 more tickets... everyone i asked either didn't want to go, couldn't go, or did not respond to my query... or told me they would go and then made conflicting plans right in front of me an hour later...
I'm going to go home, go have a few drinks, get my drunk ass picked up by ap0rnnstar and go have a kicking time tonight at the VNV Nation show...
Fuck you,
Space Boy
I am sick of sitting around and hearing ignorant ass arrogant fuckers spewing off about shit they not only have no fucking clue about but have no desire to have a fucking clue about.
We're back to negative resentful antagonistic cold pissed off at women Space Boy. I don't honestly think they actually listen to what it is they are saying ever?
I'm in a sooper bad mood. I'm going to do my best to not take it out on anyone but this LJ. I have my headphones on and am enjoying the wonderful world that is Russian Dance Musique...
I made a new friend or something? It's strange... really strange. She kinda reminds me of Sierra, but a lot less psycho... she is 19. I do not think she has very many close friends. She invited me to stay the night at her place last night... I did not tell her this, but she had some really bad dreams... she woke me up a few times (we were in different beds... let that be your clarification that nothing non-platonic happened) tossing and turning and kinda screaming but dreaming still. It made me sad. Because that's how I feel a lot. I almost always have bad dreams.
Completely Unrelated:
One of my least favourite things in this universe involves someone you've made it known to that you have a crush on or may-be in love with or what have you feeling it neccecary in some sick-female-sadism to tell you about all of their crushes and objects of lust, and escapades... that are not with you. Then you say things such as "Hey could you not tell me those things ever again?" or "It really bothers me when I get to hear that shit." and they do it any way.
"Why don't you go back to your home on whore island?"
Yesterday:
... on a whim with said new friend I ventured out to sit in on some all chick band's practice and it was kind of uncomfortable and kind of cool at the same time... their band's name is "Pretty In Stereo"
After this involved dinner then chilling at new friend's apartment.
Something I've Noticed:
And this would be really fucking sexist, well I still find it sexist, if sexism was NOT a one way street. It is ok, understood, accepted, tolerated, et al... when a female of the species is moody... having mood swings, over emotional, over-reacts... et al. When a male of the species though (such as MYSELF) experiences the same things, which in my case being male are called "problems" it is totally unacceptable and not understood and seen as something to steer away from something unacceptable and that maybe I should consider medication for...
All You Psycho Hormonal Bitches Out There:
GET ON SOME FUCKING MEDS... A MOOD STABILIZER OR TWO MAYBE AN ANTI DEPRESSANT OR THREE AND I'LL CONSIDER THE MED THING.
Oh... and you are just as psycho as I am if not more so...
"It's ok cry-baby... tears dry."
No matter what it is I am experiencing other than a quiet happy contentment some people feel the need to complain and make negative commentary about it as if my mood-scope is somehow intolerable, as if their own is any easier to handle.
If I feel sad, I am going to cry, and be sad.
If I feel anger, I am going to get it out healthily, and be angry.
If I feel excited, I am going to be excited, and be excited.
When I feel a quiet happy contentment come on... don't complain that I'm not talking enough or I might just be driven back to one of those other undesirable other emotions.
Oh and BTW:
You are fucking impossible to please so I have stopped trying.
Tonight:
Going to see VNV Nation with ap0rnnstar though i have 2 more tickets... everyone i asked either didn't want to go, couldn't go, or did not respond to my query... or told me they would go and then made conflicting plans right in front of me an hour later...
I'm going to go home, go have a few drinks, get my drunk ass picked up by ap0rnnstar and go have a kicking time tonight at the VNV Nation show...
Fuck you,
Space Boy