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Well.....okay, lets do it this way. Have you ever heard something....well, no. I have you ever wanted do do something, but the person you wanted it do it with, said no. Well...they didnt say no....but, they made it clear that it would be better if you didnt go. And, at the time, the reason was hurtful, but understandable....well, the reason was just mentioned on the phone....anyways, but later...well. Nevermind. I am just really hurt, and i shouldnt be. I know that i should not care. It shouldnt be a big deal, but to me it is. Because i am told all the time that this cant happen, or that cant happen, because of stuff that i have done in my past. But, fuck it. I cant help it, im not even allowed to talk about it, because "everything" makes me mad, and i bitch about worthless things. So, i cant bitch. I have to deal. And it sucks. But, whatever. I dont know. I dont know why it bothers me. Yea i do. Because they told me no, and told him yes. Actually....well, fuck it, it doesnt matter. I am gonna go. Me and dad may go to the driving range. I need to release some tension.