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I am growing more and more depressed with the more rejection I get. I'm on the verge of a total break down. Last night was SUCK. I just needed to go on a drive. Went to the east end to play some music with some friends. The singer sucks. After I left I called almost everybody even those who I hadn't talked to in a while with no response. then I went to see black Dahlia. Good movie. It lacked spice that should be in a suspence movie. I got carded to see a rated R movie. I had the theater to myself. Yes I smoked during the whole thing. If your a smoker you can't not smoke during that movie. every 5 sec. a cig gets lit up. I have this ball of emptiness in the middle of my chest that won't go away. I have no media of releasing the feelings I have. I have tried everything. I have become the old man that yells at the young kids party'n it up on the street cause I have to wake up in the morning. They don't listen. Some people have no respect.