acceptance
i have always really battled with the fact that life ends in death.
i have always known what it feels like to have lost someone you love. feels like my childhood was littered with more memories than i would like to recall of family members dying, of people one by one exiting stage left until now the lineage of my family tree has been dwindled down to a small number of 5. soon i am all to saddened to say to only be 4.
a woman who has lived through more in one lifetime than most people do in a couple has grown too weary of life. a mother who has practically fallen apart has decided she doesnt want to do so anymore.
she has made the decision that she will no longer be pumping her body full of radioactive poison to try to rid herself of the destructive visitor her body has become invaded by.
she has made the choice to have quality over quantity.
i some how in spite of all of my fears think she has made the right choice. such an out of body experience to agree with the woman who gave you life that 5 more years on this planet would be a good enough amount of time for us all to say goodbye.
how does one even begin to go about getting ready to lose their mother? how on earth will anything ever feel the same again once she is gone?
my faith and i need to have a little talk about this one. its time i suppose to really get serious about what i believe.
i have always known what it feels like to have lost someone you love. feels like my childhood was littered with more memories than i would like to recall of family members dying, of people one by one exiting stage left until now the lineage of my family tree has been dwindled down to a small number of 5. soon i am all to saddened to say to only be 4.
a woman who has lived through more in one lifetime than most people do in a couple has grown too weary of life. a mother who has practically fallen apart has decided she doesnt want to do so anymore.
she has made the decision that she will no longer be pumping her body full of radioactive poison to try to rid herself of the destructive visitor her body has become invaded by.
she has made the choice to have quality over quantity.
i some how in spite of all of my fears think she has made the right choice. such an out of body experience to agree with the woman who gave you life that 5 more years on this planet would be a good enough amount of time for us all to say goodbye.
how does one even begin to go about getting ready to lose their mother? how on earth will anything ever feel the same again once she is gone?
my faith and i need to have a little talk about this one. its time i suppose to really get serious about what i believe.