and then there were two
and so yesterday was the end for yet another of my tiny pets. the stealthiest one of them all is no more.
i cried for a while last night at the loss of a life so small but still so important.
i cried for others lives i have lost in my life and the deep profound sadness that this small death invoked in me was just a straw that broke a camels back.
i miss him. i wish i could of said good bye. i wish that he wasnt dead at all. i wish that his exit from this world hadnt left me feeling so scared and afraid of living life without the ones you love.
i wish i hadnt buried this pain so deeply inside of me so that i could of worked this out years ago.
i wish that i didnt wish so hard.
i cried for a while last night at the loss of a life so small but still so important.
i cried for others lives i have lost in my life and the deep profound sadness that this small death invoked in me was just a straw that broke a camels back.
i miss him. i wish i could of said good bye. i wish that he wasnt dead at all. i wish that his exit from this world hadnt left me feeling so scared and afraid of living life without the ones you love.
i wish i hadnt buried this pain so deeply inside of me so that i could of worked this out years ago.
i wish that i didnt wish so hard.