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aww... i just found out that will had been waiting for me for a while before i dumped the asshole josh... its so sweet... caitlyn and me were talking and she sed like a few months back he was lik... "i need a girl whos as kinky as me and wants to do all the stuff i wanna do... like a girl who wont get all freaked out if i do somthing weird", and i asked him about it and he was like yea, i found that person, and was like youre perfect... it was so sweet... and totally true because were a perfect match... hes awesome... i love him so much... :-) its amazing whats rite under your nose all along... but youre too wrapped up in what youre doing to realise it... im so happy rite now... its better than its ever been for me before... will is exactly what i need right now... my only problem is i know i have stronger feelings for him than i did for josh, i just cant let myself get as attached... im afraid of what could happen (ex. we break up and never talk again, had that happen too many times with too many people i really cared about.) i want to love him without holding back... i really do, but i dont know if im ready for that yet... but i really want to be... damnit, im putting up walls! no walls! i hate those... theyre really hard to break down... fuck.
but any ways, besides that... ummm... we had PSATs yesterday, and josh called me a "lying hor......" (i mean he didnt even fucking spell it rite), and im not talking to him... i hate him now and will never get back together with him... thats a promise... if i do please shoot me... i give you total and copleet permission to do so... lol.
then ive decided i want to have kids... lots of them... but in like 7,8, maybe even 9 years... u kno... wen im old! lol. i hope i have pretty babies... that'll be cool... lol. i also wanna be a teacher for deaf kids... again, awesome idea... i want to becuz i think i would like it...
will wants me to help caitlyn dye his hair green... i really dont wanna... i love his red hair... it makes will, will... of corse green hair is gunna make him stand out even more... so thats great... but he'l still be a fire crotch... he should look into shaving... lol. i think i like that idea... i dont much like hair... and his face needs shaved too... hes got sideburns... ick, but i guess its just me that doesnt like em... lol. so yea... i rote alot today... i guess ill stop now... ttyl!
~katie
but any ways, besides that... ummm... we had PSATs yesterday, and josh called me a "lying hor......" (i mean he didnt even fucking spell it rite), and im not talking to him... i hate him now and will never get back together with him... thats a promise... if i do please shoot me... i give you total and copleet permission to do so... lol.
then ive decided i want to have kids... lots of them... but in like 7,8, maybe even 9 years... u kno... wen im old! lol. i hope i have pretty babies... that'll be cool... lol. i also wanna be a teacher for deaf kids... again, awesome idea... i want to becuz i think i would like it...
will wants me to help caitlyn dye his hair green... i really dont wanna... i love his red hair... it makes will, will... of corse green hair is gunna make him stand out even more... so thats great... but he'l still be a fire crotch... he should look into shaving... lol. i think i like that idea... i dont much like hair... and his face needs shaved too... hes got sideburns... ick, but i guess its just me that doesnt like em... lol. so yea... i rote alot today... i guess ill stop now... ttyl!
~katie