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[bigboob_mcgee]

i love everyone individually so much,
but i can't do this anymore.
i'm done with all this crap.
finished.
no matter how much i love each and every person,
i can't and i won't.
everyone suck it up and be nice to each other.
not that saying that makes a difference,
or that this journal makes a difference,
or that me not wanting to be friends with anyone
will make a difference to any of you... i just wish it could stop.
i want it to be summer again but it can't be.
i want it to be like when ya'll were more like my
family then my actual one.
but now i feel like i have no one,
and don't really, because i can't find anyone
who's really like..genuine.
i just want one real friend.
i'm sorry i said that, i'm just angry right now.
but i'm in this huge "group"
but i have no one.
i hate everything.
i just want my best friends back.

from here it doesn't look like it'll ever be back to normal.
i'm sorry that was so dramatic.
i love everyone, so please don't take offense..
i mean i know it was harsh, but i'm just upset right now.
and i know i've messed up too,
don't think i dont know that.