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this marks the third nervous breakdown i have had this year. or.. am having.
these are the things i want:
i want to travel the world and take beautiful pictures of beautiful and eventful things.
i want to experience and communicate those people and places that show what we are, where we come from, and where we are going.
i want an endless stream of growth, opportunity, and work.
i want to pay off my debts.
i want to be able to choose my career path.
i want to be in the home i underestimated all these years.
i want to be with my new friends.
i want to make connections in my field.
i want to be with my boyfriend.
i want my own dark room.
in ten years... i want to open my own venue.
these are the paths before me:
UofO
+ journalism program ranking top 20 in the nation, specifically tailored journalism majors, possibility to double-major with photography, a sense of focus and direction. new experiences (club sports im excited about).
- i hate oregon, i miss my home, i miss my family friends my cat and boy. eugene is a small town with a shitty paper and shitty broadcast news, and no contacts in my field other than my award winner professor(s). debt.
bailing on UofO and returning to community college for a semester untill i can re-apply to chapman
+ being able to live at home and not pay for an appartment. possibly getting an internship or some work experience in the area i actually might like to work in after college. making contacts in my field. opportunity to wirte for an award winning school paper. being in an enviornment i like, friends, family, cat, boy.
- having to major in english with an emphasis in journalism (no profession-specific tailored 'magazine journalism' major etc.). possibly getting sidetracked into living life (not just hermitting and studying which i feel i may need). possibly even more debt. no chance to double-major with photography.
so basically its: which is more important, happiness or education? and connections or a degree?
i have no idea -_-
these are the things i want:
i want to travel the world and take beautiful pictures of beautiful and eventful things.
i want to experience and communicate those people and places that show what we are, where we come from, and where we are going.
i want an endless stream of growth, opportunity, and work.
i want to pay off my debts.
i want to be able to choose my career path.
i want to be in the home i underestimated all these years.
i want to be with my new friends.
i want to make connections in my field.
i want to be with my boyfriend.
i want my own dark room.
in ten years... i want to open my own venue.
these are the paths before me:
UofO
+ journalism program ranking top 20 in the nation, specifically tailored journalism majors, possibility to double-major with photography, a sense of focus and direction. new experiences (club sports im excited about).
- i hate oregon, i miss my home, i miss my family friends my cat and boy. eugene is a small town with a shitty paper and shitty broadcast news, and no contacts in my field other than my award winner professor(s). debt.
bailing on UofO and returning to community college for a semester untill i can re-apply to chapman
+ being able to live at home and not pay for an appartment. possibly getting an internship or some work experience in the area i actually might like to work in after college. making contacts in my field. opportunity to wirte for an award winning school paper. being in an enviornment i like, friends, family, cat, boy.
- having to major in english with an emphasis in journalism (no profession-specific tailored 'magazine journalism' major etc.). possibly getting sidetracked into living life (not just hermitting and studying which i feel i may need). possibly even more debt. no chance to double-major with photography.
so basically its: which is more important, happiness or education? and connections or a degree?
i have no idea -_-